it has never been the truth. my life's are just full of craps. never once i feel happy. why? there's just this word as "UNLUCKY". i've been crying since just now. i was happy plus sad. happy cos my bf shows nd proves to me how much he loves me even tho with all the outcomes have been stressing me. sad cos im just not feeling right. yes im lucky to have him. but most of it im just unlucky for getting this life of mine. im just stress. too stress with life. why must it be so hard. never once i get to feel th joy of love. getting one true love is hard nd once i get it, i make use of it. i never get serious. NEVER. but i just dont noe why. has it been me or something else. truthfully ive been asking myself: "what do i want in this world" , "why do i need love" but i never noe nd never get the answer. its all plain thots in me. im really thankful to have my bestfriend that has been helping me smile nd laugh. but why must it be for awhile nd den its gone. can u just please help me once? do not ever lie to me. ive had enuf of lies from different2 people. just once, make me happy will u?
im down with depression nd stress-NESS.
help me will anyone? PLS
*crying very badly
still pictures cant be uploaded.
eh, hello people!~ ive took out my cast ytd. basically bf pick me up at 830 in the morning to go to NUH for my appoinment. nd eh yessa! now i can see my hand nd my hand is back to normal. only that its not fully heal yet nd i hardly move my rite hand. hahah. okay so after that which is at 1230 we picked yana up from her home. she was late. biasa lah dia. hahah. bf drove us too bugis. shop shop shop nd den to town. shop shop shop nd we had nowhere to go. but its only 830. since bf is the driver we told him to just go anywhere that u think is gd enuf for us to lepak. at last no idea we went to PH. since yana's ehem working. hahah. she very malu2. den he also never talk much. aiya all because today got date rite. haha. kecoh uh kau yana. after which we headed to yana's home to see her catwalk with her heels. since she bought heels for today's date. hahahhahh. she look good. really2. not lying. seriously if that person doesnt fall for her kn mmg bodoh sey. i think she'll take her photo. we'll see if she uploads to her blog. if yes. i tell u guys u gonna look at her pic not once uhs. hahah. ((:
nd today, i woke up real early to go to work. i was actually late. i start at 9 but i woke up at 8 nd was still in my towels at 830. haiya. so since i was already late, i took the taxi noeing that there will be traffic jam. but since im not in the mood nd i think its best still to take the cab, i did. the traffic jam at PIE was like shit uhs! i wasted 30 bucks just to go SGH at outram! reached workplace, i went to meet my supervisor. nd yes since i still have to wear my armsling, i cant work much. doctor told me to have light duties. but since my job is heavy duties nd have to attend to patients so they decided to leave me. so im jobless rite now! what a waste 30 bucks on cab nd i can go home at 10?? dont u think my department at SGH is like fuck. in the first place my agent doesnt say anything. CB! fuck and i have to find a new job rite now. stupid. as if i wan this accident to happen. haiya. enuf of this lah. my sweet lil friend going on a date nd she was damn nervous just now. she called me, i calmed her nd yes i think shes on the bike rite now. hahah. babe, relax okay((: and im meeting my bf in a while. i havent had my shower, havent siap yet. nd its already going to 5. he's fetching me at 6. god damn it seh. haha. okay lah. i think i gtg. have to dress myself up ready. mati if he reached i havent get dressed. haha. okay lah. will update anything soon again(:
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i dont noe what happen to this blog. i cant upload pic. okay nevermind. yesterday me, bf & yana went somewhere ard woodlands before heading up to fetch shy&helmi from their place to go johor. sent yana home and den the four of us which is me, bf, shy &helmi went to jb. bf drove there. helmi drove back home. went to jb just for pump oil. hahah. kecoh ehk. den we lepak-ed at my block for a while nd den we went home.
today, im at home whole day. nd tmr is my best day for almost 30 days at home. my cast can be taken out tmr nd im going shopping w yana nd boyfriend tmr!yay! weeee! lets go shopping tmr baby! ((:
nothing to say. i wanna watch my drama! bye!(:
see you again!
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i followed bf & most of th PH people to JB on tues to eat seafood. with.. MUSTAFA along. hahah. it was damn kecoh. there was 9 rider & iclusive f 4 pillions. so total was 13 people. it wasnt expected to be that kecoh. haha. whatever it is the foods was damn good. but as usual i never finish it. i mean i did. but i never tambah2 like others la. haha.
on wed plak i receive a very shocking msg from this kental friend of mine that shes having a date with that someone who is quite special for her. hahah. im happy fr u dear.(: but i stayed home. haha. cos shes going fr a date. nd i got no friend to ajak lpk. haha.
on thurs,ayu came to my hse. i wasnt feeling good. i was having back aches & running nose the day before. nd i feel like getting sick. so intention was to go doctor. but in the end ayu brought me to her workplace to take application form? timesheet? whatever lah to send to alvin at novena. since i got nothing to do i just followed her. dgn hidung irritating2 jgk aku pergi. hahah. selekeh2 pon pergi.
after that this kpo friend of eliyana, which is me very kpo nd anxious wanting to noe the story about her date ytd. so we met. biasa la.. eqa nd yana skrg da jd minah2 gossip. hahaha. nd so we met gossip2 nd discussed abt my birthday party. everything is under control. dont worry. 2 weeks before my bday, i will let you guys noe k.. ((: nd den my bf came down fr awhile. chitchat with the minah kental ketawe2 den off to home.
today, yan brought me to watch harry potter since so long he promised to watch with me. hahah. we watched at 1250. he was late so i bully him. pantat. he bls balek sey dtg lbt. CHEH! harrypotter ended at 315. instead of going for eat straight cos i was damn hungry, he asked me to buy another ticket to watch G.I Joe. pantat. he say he wants to have a movie marathon. sial. nd i waste 18.50 tdy for 2 movie! god damn it. naseb baek G.I Joe was not bad. diffrentiate G.I Joe nd Harry Potter. G.I Joe is much more better. so its worth the 10 buck i waste for G.I Joe cos its after 5. CHEH! after buying the tix den we went to eat at MAC. asal klua ngn kau yan, aku asek mkn MAC aje. mana aku tk gemok. haiya. haha. it ended ard 730. den we jln2 fr awhile nd den home sweet home! yay!
so... i went out almost everyday this week. nd2 do not get angry if 1 movie u watched was not good. go have a movie marathon nd try to get a better movie. its worth yr money. haha. thats if you hv alot of money lah. hhaahah.
get ready for staying home from sat to next thur eqa.. hahaha!
ive got nothing much to say.
remember bestfriend, if u get a bf on my bday. i dont need anything else for my present from u. thats gd enuf. ((: i love u.
i so want that CHARLES&KEITH sandal!! who want to get tt fr me?!
nvr mind. sandal, wait for me next week k.(:
bye!
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sungguh aku boring!
ive been lepak-ING at home since saturday.
boyfriend working. bestfriend working&busy w school.
boredboredbored!
can someone pls bring me out! prettypretty pls!
kaki aku da gatal nak klua. hahaah.
tmr might be following bf to jb.
thats tmr. what abt tdy?? haiyer. pls!
sapa2 nak lepak ker. pls! hahahah
i miss you.(:
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yana: "SC! SC!" hahahah
klua ngan si mentel , aku pon jd mentel. haha
coli, cast mau simpan eh eqa!
si minah2 mentel nie went out yesterday.
i headed to yana's hse as usual for the make up. she helped me twice nd im proud of her work & she does to. hahah.
we den headed to outram to meet Raha to take timesheet from SGH and den we headed down to suntec to meet my agent. after which we went separate ways with raha. she went home& the both of us went for our late lunch at marina square. kenyang areadi as usual routine. sambil2 we camwhore. welll girls. hahah.
each others hp da mcm camera nikkon tpy padehal camera phone. hahah.walk down the bridge in mind theres a fireworks but ya NO! hahah. so went ended up walking to fullerton hotel's toilet. wow! the hotel is happening shit ah. damn it. hahah
camwhore everywhere we stop. walked down around clarke quay as well chit chatting befr head down to ph at 1100. talked rubbish&so. laughed & eventually i enjoyed my day&nite with my lovely minah mentel ELIYANA.
hahhaha. apparently went out with her i myself become so mentel in the photos taken. as u can see up there. wanna see more go to my facebook aite. hahaah. all along photos wants to be snap.. this line always come out from my mouth or yana's... "ok . gambar mesti mentel. step SC k" or "eqa, coli cast kau simpan eh." haha.
funny la. even though the day was spent with only the 2 of us, it was seriously well spent.
headed down to ph at 1230. reached there was only zaiful, mizan, wan vespa , mai &mustafa. yana was damn dissapointed. hehehe.
went to wan's hse nd had absolute. they not me. i wasnt in the mood to drink ytd. maybe i was too tired. yana tipsy aready. talked about someone she very segar! hahah. fall asleep &woke up at 530 to go home. zaiful sent me home & ya slept at 730 till 4 just now.. hahaha. kecoh..
nd yana, do not feel upset nimore k. go see his face puas2 at work tdy. hlgkn rindu smlm.
i so miss someone yana!! heheh.
overall, i love my time spent with my bestfriend. i love you oi!
we shud go out only the two of us again mentel2 around singapore after ur N's k. hahah. love ya! till next time.
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mr mawas
EQA