cruel?
useless?
heartless?

words that have been given to me all this while.
am i that bad?

shud i change for the better?
i might have hurt him too deeply.
but how he treat me was truely hurting me too deep too.
why must it be this hard?
why must all my relationship be this way?
why am i to ego?
where shud i throw this ego away?
he wants me to be better.
how?
this is what i am.
i cant change.
i love you, if you do love me you can be there for me to help me.
but ure not.
whereas you scolded me.
im sorry love.

i have to say this.
for the fact , i do still love farhan.
im sorry to everyone that do not like what im saying.
but, even though ive move on but my heart cant change that fast.
just give me time will you?

LOVE,
help me please?
ure just the one i need now for me to change.
im holding on to you.

please prettypretty please.
im begging you.

work was fine today.
it was a dream team like wat muz says.
the kitchen staff was me, yana & yan.
what a really dream team. haha.
it was not that busy today.
i did cut with yana beside to me doing aux.
kecohnyr yana hari ini. haha.
yan tk abes2 ngn "seluar dalam besar" die mengutuk aku.
kuangasam tol. haha.
i ended work at 10 today.
went home straight at 10 to talk to boyfriend.
nd here i am blogging.
okay bye!

nothing to talk. hahha
nites! (:

LOVED!