today&2 more days is suppose to be a special day.
but all ended real2 soon.
i miss him alot. real lot.
&im just really hurt.
even im smiling but deep in me, im crying&more than that.
so, i just got nothing to say.
congrats&hope you will be happy.
im happy when u r.
i need some happy moments please(:
&ya ive got a full time job.
im starting working there might be next week.
im waiting for the schedule to be issued out.
so, fr everyone's info i got a job at SGH.
wah. eqa jadi kakak2 nurse.
ape cakap?
hahaha.
so im happy.
&im sorry to managers at PH.
i might be quiting soon.
heheheh.
thanks for the encouragement to all who gives me support.
im happy& thanks.
ya2. i forgot to tell this story.
basically its nothing but that friday, its planned was lepak/chill.
in the end we went drinking.
&thanks eh. hahaha
BTW!!!!
aku ngn die tkda apape!
he was just helping!
aku tkkn secepat mungkin dpt pengganti.
terime kasih kerane memahami.(:
&today i woke up real early to go to jurong division HQ
it was huge! &i got lost!
hahaha.
the receptionist there is so cute&handsome!
hahahah. random!
got back home&went out again.
btw people..
ive changed my number again!
due to ive bought a new line. nomore prepaid!
so im really sorry&please call my home to get my new num to those whom ive not yet called.
as my contacts are all lost
but ive not use it lah.
im finishing my prepaid first den i will use the new one.
but for earlier notice i tell u people so that if 1 day u guys were to call me&couldnt get thru it means ive changed my num.
so thanks&do call my home to get my num aite.
thanks! (:
LOVED!
we've broken up.
i dont have anything to say anymore.
potpetpotpetpotpet.
she wasnt this noisy in the morning.
but she suddenly blast out just now.
because i scolded kakak.
fuck you lah.
im fucking angry.
i hate everything! cibai!
my computer was down since the last update.
im sorry for not updating.
at last ive got a call from one of the many jobs i applied for.
i went for the interview last friday&i might be posted to either TTSH or SGH.
im gonna go thru a 3 month training&then a 1 yr contract.
im okay with it at least i got a full time job that can cover for my daily expenses,start schooling again&parents.
so im soooo happy. hehe
okay.
so im currently having an "onthrock"position with my boyfriend.
he's getting irritated with my attitude.
&he says im getting on his nerves?
might be. im sorry okay?
but im angry because you just dont have the time for your own girlfriend!
but you have soo much time for your friend!
how am i not angry with u.
but im really sorry for my attitude, my stubborn-NESS&everything.
i noe ive been making you angry.
but i promise i'll change.
all i wanted as a gf is tt treat me as one pls.
im your gf. not yr fren.
i'll change.
i love you.
alot!~
LOVED
the genting trip
the skakiesmekia
the ITE friends 
the azpirasi dancersi miss each&everyone.
the fun times we had together.
the laughters&all.
it was really something that i miss to do.
&it was never expected that i lost contact to most of them.
friends that i have not seen so long.
&friends that we've not close anymore.
i miss you guys.
really.
i just got home from work.
boyfriend is busy at home.
he got something important to do.
so i'll only call him later.
ive got nothing to do&so i decided to update something about people's up there.
*the genting tripit was my memorable trip with my special ones.
it will never forgotten.
the fun trip we had there was awesome.
&i miss that happiness.
it ended so fast.
*the skakiesmekiamy lovely cliques.
my heart&soul cliques.
whom have been going thru thick&thin with each other during each&everyones hard time.
2 years of friendship& we go our separate waes due to new school.
but deep down we are still caring&loving each other.
we are just waiting for the rite time for the whole lot of us to have free time for our reunion.
I MISS YOU
*the ITE friendsnew clans i had in ITE life.
friends that was sweet &sour sometimes.
we argued. but was okay in a while.
hated each other but ended up loving each other.
days were spent mostly with them.
hard to say but it was all for a while.
course ended so do us.
&really i miss you guys.
*the azpirasi dancers.i so miss dancing.
&i so miss the people there.
dancing for shows.
kecohs during training.
kecohs on the day of shows.
had dinner together.
helping each other.
&many more.
simply i just love the people in azpirasi.
its been so long that i went for training.
&i miss dancing with them
i will come back soon.
i miss everyone there((:
SIMPLY.
i miss my friends. ALOT!
done&gone
LOVED!
cruel?
useless?
heartless?
words that have been given to me all this while.
am i that bad?
shud i change for the better?
i might have hurt him too deeply.
but how he treat me was truely hurting me too deep too.
why must it be this hard?
why must all my relationship be this way?
why am i to ego?
where shud i throw this ego away?
he wants me to be better.
how?
this is what i am.
i cant change.
i love you, if you do love me you can be there for me to help me.
but ure not.
whereas you scolded me.
im sorry love.
i have to say this.
for the fact , i do still love farhan.
im sorry to everyone that do not like what im saying.
but, even though ive move on but my heart cant change that fast.
just give me time will you?
LOVE,
help me please?
ure just the one i need now for me to change.
im holding on to you.
please prettypretty please.
im begging you.
work was fine today.
it was a dream team like wat muz says.
the kitchen staff was me, yana & yan.
what a really dream team. haha.
it was not that busy today.
i did cut with yana beside to me doing aux.
kecohnyr yana hari ini. haha.
yan tk abes2 ngn "seluar dalam besar" die mengutuk aku.
kuangasam tol. haha.
i ended work at 10 today.
went home straight at 10 to talk to boyfriend.
nd here i am blogging.
okay bye!
nothing to talk. hahha
nites! (:
LOVED!
boredness. ive applied so many jobs since morning. insyaallah can get any one of the applied jobs ive made. wah eqa dah pandai buat resume yang betul. hahah. amazing siol. no foods at home. hungry plus angry. boyfriend called after finishing work but telling me theres this one girl ask for his name. cheh! i cannot be jealous meh? haiya. never mind. as long as his not going to look for another gf sudah lah. tk cukup i ker? hahah.
i need to say something. but im just not in the mood coz im hungry and its not that important tho. okay nevermind lah. i got to go. tired ready. ohh.. btw, ive not yet showered, my home is in a mess. i called mummy saying that selagi no food at home for me to eat, selagi tu i wont do any chores at home. but ive done vaccumming&mopping uhs. the messed things are from the bertimbun baju2 yang da lipat belom simpan. heh! later lor. okay bye!
*i love you tau tak giler! HEHEHEH
LOVED!
my stomach is aching since morning.
i dont noe wat happened.
&today i woke up pretty early.
which is at 1130 &ive been watching tv since then.
wow. it was so amazing. hahah.
having new life with someone new is really hard.
im still with my usual attitude.
which makes someone irritated.
&i dont noe how to change when that particular someone wants me to change.
i noe ure not use to it but pretty please give me a chance&time for me change.
prettyprettyplease.
i love you alright?
i really do(:
wanted to go rebonding tomorrow.
but see if i get my pay ready lah.
my hair really sucks.
with all those frizzy stupid curls coming out hair.
heh. stupid sey.
party-ING day with eliyana this sunday.
hop on great moments with bestie once in a lifetime.
i love you sweetheart(:
check out pichas real soon when i went to malacca& whatever pichas that r supposed to be uploaded aite.
got to go. my drama start ready!
bye!
LOVED
PEOPLE!
GET THIS CLEAR!
I'VE BROKEN UP WITH FARHAN!
ITS OFFICIALLY!
stop asking me about him and so watever shit.
im happy with my new relationship and please dont remind me a thing about farhan!
remember this please pretty please!
me&farhan are through k?!
for once people, trust me that im through with him.
i noe its hard for people to trust me on that.
but really. ive broken up with farhan.
thanks!
boyfriend called me as early as 7 to tell me he's on his way to work.
and i cant sleep again.
since my comp is not off yet so i decided to update my blog again.
and im updating my blog to let FARHAN noe that im happy with my new relationship!
&jangan perasan yang aku tulis pasal kau!
okay BYE!
&if anyone not happy with my updates and reading my blog
just get lost
thanks
&i forgot to update something.
now then i remembered.
ELIYANA ; im sorry about that day.
really sorry.
i love you(:
boredom!
LOVED
its not and will never get better.
its hard for me to start new.
but im trying my best.
im trying my best to change.
im trying my best to give my love to him.
i hardly gets wat i want.
with this relationship im getting back wat i didnt get before.
im proud and happy to be here again.
*in a relationship*
ya. nothing can be done.
applying jobs with no responds.
im sick and tired of it.
might as well i just get out of this hse and look for job by my own.
haiz.
get a life , find something new.
follow both yr heart and mind. *thank you alot(:
LOVED
EQA