life's getting ridiculous.

how can barcelona win btw??
cheh! cannot lah.

thanks for making bestfriends fight and hate each other.
you're just one fucking shit!
i hate you!
for once, we're through and yess im happy without you!
fuck you.

aku taknak balas2.
tapi ingat aku takkan diam diri.
you should noe what i mean farhan.
let the game begin!
haha.

nothing can be done at home. too bored ready.
wanna go out, no money.
wanna lepak, friends working.
wanna sleep, tdy dah bgn kul 0230.
haha. i think its better if i just do nothing lah.
hehe. wanna look for job pon tk gune. CHEH!

oh ya.
i wanna kill someone. to make sure he dies infront of my face,
den im gonna be the happiest person in the world.
nothing to update more lah.
just accept it that ure one fucking sweettalker.
BULLSHIT!

LOVED; R-M-F(i dont y)

i trusted you but everything was just unexpected.
how could you?
i love you truthfully but all this happen.
you my dearest friend, but what is this?
you were different infront of me but different by the back of me.

IM TOO DISAPPOINTED AND UPSET TO TALK!

ytd me and yazid went to watch movie at vivo.
he fetched me at bb after i went to meet my cousin to pass money.
he waited for me at macdonalds traffic light.
the funny thing is that.
when i wanted to naek his motor, i usually naek motor from the right.
but then theres so many cars so i boarded from the left.
hahah. nd kite dah nak jatoh.
it wobbles and we laugh out loud ah.
malu siol.
hahah. so we watched "the uninvited" .
it wasnt that scary but its suspends was like what the hell sak.
bole dikatekn aku sorang je yg terpekik terlolong kat dlm hall tuu.
hahah.samapi yazid malu nak layan aku. haha
ohh ya!
before the movie started we had ben&jerry.
sedap tpy chocolate die masyaallah.
tersekat kt tekak.
haha.
after that teros balek lah.
went to pH.
something shit happened.
i lazy to say.
let only the people's there noe.
then daripade plan nk gi mkn teros balek. aku tkda mood pyr psl.
aku kat rmh kelaparan. sial btol.
hahah.
okay im done lah.
will update again.
bye!

LOVED ; R-M-F
*021008

my life is nothing rite now. nothing without him.

i do love you dearly
but i think its really time for me to go.
i dont need you in my life anymore.
sooner or later its really gonna be the end.
how hard it is for me to let go of you, i think its the best.

if you really love me, you wouldnt do all that to me.
im sorry.
i do love you but i dont need this anymore.
leave me alone and i will find my way to start getting back to my own self
after reading this, pls do not look for me.
if you wanna think otherwise, do as u wish.
but im not like wat u think.
im not you my dear.
im hurt too deeply.
i cant bear to lose you. but i cant bear to get treated this way and hurt anymore.
im sorry sweetheart. but i have to go.
i noe you wont change for me.
I LOVE YOU ALOT.
how i wish i could really be the one thats in her place.

IM SORRY, GOODBYE (im crying)
i noe u noe i love you.
but we cant continue this rite?

eqa SAAAYAANG an.
tpy ini semua harus berakhir.
selamat tinggal.

*im forever your princess sweetheart!
my heart wont change.
i will only love you.
i promise.
if we are destined to be together, we will meet again.
I LOVE YOU ALOT.

im still in love with R-M-F
*021008

hey
im currently at cuzzies hse.
nothing to do rite now.
i was at her home since yesterday.
i came down to woodlands intention was not to come to her hse.
but since something cropped up, i ended up staying over at her place.
so we talked, shared everything and even watched my favourite movie at youtube.
we laughed and had our early early breakfast which is nasi goreng with ayam at 0400 am.
how early was our breakfast??
haha.ended up feeling sleepy so both of us went to room but we ended up talking again.
0500 am kakak fell asleep when i cant as you noe why.
i cant slp until someone calls me.
so only at 5 that someone called me.
tgh bbl, die tetdo.
i got angry so we ended up hanging up the phone and fall asleep.
da mrh2. aku tdo je. da dgr suare kire okay lah tu. hahah.
okay lah. nothing more to say. i will be leaving kakaks hse at 9 maybe.
will update again soon.
oh yaa. i got an interview tomorrow! wish me luck! thanks!((:

BYE!

LOVED ; R-M-F

*kau janjikan bahagia , namun kau hantui degan gurauan berbisa*

im just hurt , upset and sad.
am i too stupid that everyone can treat me this way?
i have feelings dear.
if you think by this you can be happy , then fine.

to end this here. lets do it.

i got nothing more to say.

WE ARE JUST NOT MEANT FOR EACH OTHER.

nothing can change the fact that you're meant for her but not me.
my life might not be filled with happiness but if you think this way makes me&you happy then we do it.
you made me make this decision.
you make me feel stupid.
you make me feel like im nothing for you.
whereas you promised happiness for the both of us.
how could you?
huh?!
we just dont need each other anymore.
how hard i try to save this relationship , we will never will.
cox YOU make it this way.
how hard i tell you i love you , you never trust me.
then its better for me to love you silently.
then, you can be happy.

if you do love me, den do as i say to you all this while.
if you cant, then we really are not meant to be together.
im just wasting my time loving someone that doesnt love me truely.

you just hurt me too deeply.
im hurt really hurt.
how could you?!

now, my heart really is broken to pieces!
hard to say.

but , I DO LOVE YOU.

it will never happen. NEVER.
cox you are just playing with it.
you dont love me but you r just saying it to make me feel happy.
i cant talk anymore.
im too hurt and im crying.
GOD bless you sweetheart!

*im forever you princess sweetheart!
really wont change.

LOVED ; R-M-F

its almost 5 in the morning and i cant sleep.
it questions me why am i still up and where are you.
im waiting from just now and theres no news.
im sleepy but everytime im on my bed, my eyes wont shut.
my minds playing around about you.

im waiting and still waiting.
since i cant sleep then i'll do some talks here.

i met yana around 4 just now down at yew tee.
i went for my hair treatment and then down for breakfast cum lunch with yana.
and den she ended up at my house lepak with ayu.
lepak tk buat ape2 till 930?
hmm. and then they went off.
furniture coming in and out from this hse.
it irritates me alot.
where mummy is quarelling with daddy.
and im not in the mood with kakak.
but in the end, she blanje me macdonalds just now.
she met her friend and i ordered her to buy me food cos i was hungry.
and yes she came home with a meal of mcWings.
thanks alot. how much i love you kakak.(:

i mati2 want to watch ezora till end.
but youtube's episode of that drama is only till like 54.
haiya.
but im trying my best to watch it.
i cant continue watching it with my mind not at ease now.
might as well i just lie on my bed to make myself fell asleep.

so den i have to go.

*LIFE HAS TO GO ON*
*AND I DO STILL LOVE YOU*



i want to sleep!
GOODBYE!

LOVED ; R-M-F

hello(:

im not working today.
and its like my finally off day since 5 days straight of working.
its damn tired ah. haiya.
my backbone , my legs are all aching.
tmr, working again.
okay so.
i have something to talk about.

yesterday the crews working was yan , me and yazid.
and during yan missing in action , me and yazid had some talks.
he was talking about his love life with this one particular girl.
he really loves this girl but for almost 1 yr of relationship , they broke off because of this girl made some problems.
after 6 years , they got back together.
and less than a yr they broke up again with the same mistakes from this girl.
so he had to let her go. with his heart broken too deep.
but , yazid is cool enough to attend her wedding day.
sits infront of the pelamin and saying congrats to her.
but really deep in his heart he was hurt and crying.
and he told me , till now he's still loving her and if she were to be a janda(i dont noe wats in english. sorry)
he will definitely be with her back. because he loves her still.
and he never bear any grudges towards her mistakes or whatever shit she has done to him.

the purpose of me writing this post was because of something that my mind is thinking.
yazid might be just as cool to let his love one gets married infront of him with another guy.
but i dont think so i am.
his a one big stong guy i tell you.
how would i be if it would be me in that state.
(you should noe what im talking about if you were reading this)
i might be still waiting like yazid do.
but i dont think i can see you get married with someone else infront of me.
my mind keep playing this since yesterday after the talks with yazid.
sial lah. i really cant imagine it.
how can yazid be so strong?
might be because of love , he is strong enuf to wait.
i think i must be strong like yazid when the time really comes infront of me.
but i dont think i can change the fact of getting hurt.

sudah lah eqa.
klu ade jodoh , tk kemane.
mcm YOU ckp (:
hehe.

haiya.
im still sleepy.
i slept at 0930 in the morning yesterday and woke up at 0200 in the afternoon just because i was working.
and yesterday after work i slept at 0200 in the morning as usual and i woke up at 0200 in the afternoon today but i am still sleepy.
i have not had enuf sleep.
i need to sleep!
haiya. but im waiting for something!
heheheehhehe.

got to go lah. kemas rmh jap rase2 nyr.
dah ngantok giler babi , tido lah.
hehs.
okay!

LOVED ; R-M-F

GOODBYE!

Nur Eliyana Bte Muhd Tahir

pretty aint she?(:
we started as strangers.
and soon we became close.
and she has been the one that i consider so close to me at work that i share everything with her.
there's a purpose of me posting about her. ; here it goes.
yana, i might not be the greatest friend ever.
i might not be the one who've always been there for you.
i might not have been cared for you.
i might not have been understand you feelings.
and i might not be the special one in your life.
but truth is i never stop loving you as my dearest ones.
as you've been the one supporting me from behind thru thick and thin.
i've lost two bestfriend before and because i've treated you like a bestfriend, i am praying hard not to lose you.
it may sound so whatever to you.
but this is really from my heart.
i might have scolded you for no reasons.
i might have hated you for a stupid reason.
but i never see the best things that u have done for me.
you never forget me even the singlest thing.
you have been there for me all this while.
you have been the one who listens to my stupid crap story every single day.
each time i meet you, there's always something i wanna share with you cos you never say no to listen.
*kaulah segalanya* - that has been the phrase she used for me 2 yrs back. hahah.
the best thing that i never see in you this past 2 years ive noen you ;
you have been really there for me.
the sweetest thing that i ever had from you was my birthday. and ;
you never forgets me even a second.
i dont noe what would happened to me if we were to fight really badly. and ;
if i ever lose you , im really the most stupid person in this world.
*praying really hard not to lose you*
and ohh ya.
her birthday is coming.. what should i buy for her??? hmmm.. hehehe
might be my turn to surprise her?
lastly ; i love you friend . BESTFRIEND to be exact.



Raden Muhd Farhan Bin Abdul Kadir.

we started off not noeing each other.
we dont even talk.
i dont even noe him and he dont even noe me.
easiest way to say, i never even looked at him lah. heheh.
and when we started to became close?
i just dont noe.
it all came in a sudden.
where we started to hang out around together.
going to movies. hmm. mostly everything.
and not soon enuf, we ended up falling for each other.
and i ended up as his girlfriend.
being his girlfriend was the greatest moments.
and he was really the greatest boyfriend.
he never neglects me and ;
ahh senang , he treats me more like a princess. an angel or more maybe.
i never had a boyfriend like him.
i really love him too deeply.
the times spent with him for 2 months was really great.
i never get treated that way.
memories will be just memories that i will keep in my heart.
as , our relationship doesnt last long.
we broke up in the midst of our greatest time.
it was all because of my mistakes.
if it didnt happen, we might still be together right now this second. *tears drop*
farhan , i might not be the greatest girlfriend.
i might not be the everything you want from a girlfriend.
but im happy to be your girlfriend. really happy.
and to be your girlfriend, it was really my dream.
being your girlfriend was like a dream that came from heaven.
i really never regret to being your girlfriend.
he might already happy with someone else right now.
i can just miss him from far.
how i really wish it didnt end.
so much to share. it might not fit to this one post. so maybe next time.
but lastly ; farhan , i really never regret in noeing you and i really wish that i could turn back time.
im sorry that it ended badly.
forgive me. ohh shit. im crying. haha. okay.
ending this with just one.
i noe you are happy with someone. but i just miss you.
really missing you. and might be the last time i said this since long?
I LOVE YOU ; still.



Nur Afiqah Bte Abdul Razak

this girl here is the one writing everything down since just now.
only god noes how and what she is rite now.
there's nothing much to say about her.
she is just her.
and she is still waiting and waiting.
(someone noes about this)
and its YOU.

to end this post , im telling everyone.
do not neglect anyone whom you love.
treasure them rite now this second.
because you might not noe you might be losing them in just a blink of an eye.
ive lost someone important in my life in just 2 months and i regret it.
and im really treasuring my friendship with my bestfriend up there. not to just lose her in a blink of an eye.
remember, life might be short but yr love ones have to be kept in you forever.
and im doing it right now.
till this second , yes im still loving farhan.
but it will never like before.
i miss you and i love you.

*you're the greatest girlfriend i ever had and i love you*
(i'll keep this line forever in me.)

*im always your princess sweetheart(:

*tears drop*
GOODBYE (:

i might be seen laughing, smiling and having fun.
but no one noes wats deep inside my heart.
how i go thru this all along.
no one understands me.
no one knows me too deep.
everything was just outside.
wats about inside?
have anyone think about me?
no one.
prove to me if anyone would noe me that much.

i cant sleep and im just thinking about my life.
why must life be so unfair.
why cant life just give me chance?
i hate it.

im so heartless rite now.
god damn it.
*UPSET*

LOVED ; R-M-F