ohh. how shud i say this? i miss zai? ya.. i doo. really. seriously.
i need you here. leading me as how you did these past months we're togth. i need you badly.
im smiling and laughing outside but no one understands my inner part of feelings.
if you were to read this post of mine, i just wanna tell you i miss you alot. i noe ive not been a great girlfriend. but youve changed me alot. from asking me stop smoking. i tried, but ive cut down alot. but you knew i only smoked too much if im stress. you 're the only guy who loved me the way i want. i need you badly baby. how i wished if we were togth again. i promised i will change for the best of our relationship. but i noe you woudnt want this to happend. hermm. its okay lah.
i can cry in the inside but i will still smile on the outside.
since tt day, you've treated me lyk a doll whom you cant talk to. you dont treat me lyk you used to animore.baby, im sorry your father knew about that. im sorry i made you cry. im sorry i dissapoint your parents and you. im sorry for everything. but i promise you and i promise myself i will change for the better. give me this chance. baby, people is asking about us. i dont noe wat to say. people whu noes, understand me, people whu dont noe, is talking bad things about you. and people whu really really dont understand is puting the blame on me. and i really admit its my fault. plss. baby plsss. i need you badly.
i noe you wouldnt want us to be back togth cause ive hurt you twice. but im just telling everyone here that i miss and love you alot. only that im shy to let my feelings out to you and to let you noe that i need you in times. i prefer to be alone not with you cause i noe i would let my anger out to you. but you and people doesnt understand me. i dont mean to hurt you. and i tot u wud understand. whereas you told a bestfriend of mine that i didnt give time for our relationship. i noe i was wrong on that part. but i do not want to disturb you. a girlfriend with so much problem. would you want to spent time with me the whole day? i noe you wouldnt. sedangkan you takde time nak msg i?
i love you. alot. i mean alot. i dont mean to hurt you and your family. im sorry.
baby, forgive me. the smoking thing, im trying my best now. ive not been buying ciggarettes the past one week. but i do smoke. but not always. really. if i can stop drinking for your sake, why wouldnt i stop smoking for your sake? you just have to wait. you said you would wait....
BABY, i remembered when you hold my hand tight, when you hugged me, when you say, "baby, i love you" plssss.. i wan this thing back badly. not to say im desperate or what, its just tt i miss him alot.

BESTFRIEDNS, plsss understand me. he's just th normal guy who loves me the way i am. i noe he do loves me. i think its my wrongdoing towards him.ive not been concentrating on him. haiyak. but the other thing is that i think he have a new girl. maybe. im not sure. haiz....
plss understand me people. i just need him. plssss. badly...

if BESTFRIENDS wanna find me a new boyfriend, pls find me a guy who can help me change like how zai does. plssss. if that guy really can be like him, i love you people lah. but watever kay girls....hahahaha.i want him! bluek! but this new guy quite cool maybe? herm... sorry.. but heart still craving for his love. but if you can love me now, i promise maybe i will give u an ans... LOVES, EQA



PS: baby, im happy to know you. and i love you alot. from the bottom of my heart.. Eqa Sayang Zai. (: im soryry once again for my wrong-doings. i promise i'll change baby.. from me to you....LOVES. *winks*