people change in time.
in a second, people can change their hearts.
PEOPLE CHANGE.

LOVED;
eQa

In Loving Memories of Azli Beng..
The person who use to disturb me at work..
With his "pointing fingers" (some ppl noes it)
He Passed Away on 24 July 2008..
Semoga RohMu Dirahmati Allah..(if im not wrong, not sure)
*Amin..

okay.. so i think i shud not be sad.. whats gone is already gone..
i cant do anything.. but its quite sad to noe he goes like that..
two days before i saw him at work.. his joke and his laugh..
and suddenly this shocking thing happened.. how shud i say...

to his family, im sorry to hear that.. be strong.. ingat Allah.
semue nie ketentuan Illahi.. its fated for him to go..
we cant do anything..

We from BBC Pizza Hut Management mengucapkan Salam Takziah..
*Amin


okay.. people.. i think its better for me to ack off rite? haiya..
i dunno wat to do lah.. ishk
someone loves him.. i love him.. haiyoo.. how?
but zai? he doesnt love me animore. urghhh..
i shud move on.. blearghhh... dunno wat to say..
since im still at school.. its such a boring day today. 2 hrs of school only..
den got shows.. hermm. okay.. i going now.. bye...


LOVED;
eQa

i was caought smoking by my dad in the toilet just few minutes ago..
hahaha. stupid eqa. and i lyk tongong2 doesnt lyn his noise..hehs!
okay so today after went home straight den went out again..
with my darling daughters.. inah and liza..
we went queensway to buy our SBM things den to jurong point for the other thing.
okay cool.. we got our things readi. left a bit more. so have to wait.
okaythen im sleep now. damn sleepy. hahah.
and oh ya! im gonna rebond my hair! yay! happy or what ehk?
hehs. this is cool man. woah..
you will see the new EQA in just a min. hhahaha..no lah
btw, tomorrow we are having this blood donation thingy.
which is from your own wish lah.
and i will be going. im one of them.
so tmr, i will be seriously lack of blood. hahaha!
funny.. den see you guys again... eqa *Sleeping*

btw, do you im too useless? or do you thing im lyk doing a stupid thing?
or you think im crazy?
because you can see everywhere in this blog....
there's ZAI's name....
hahahaha..
yes im too hurt and i need him. he LIED.

THANKS!

LOVED;
eQa

im going to lalaland in a few minutes time.
wah. sleep or what ehk..
hehes.
i finished work at 8 today. but den went lepak with yana and friends.
and ended up going home late. haha
den sleepy, angry with everyone. bodoh sey eqa!
hahahas..

girlfriend, im sorry if i snatched yours.
if you want him, you may have him.
im not the one who started msging him.
he started it first.
and so, i fall in love.
but the thing is i did have a crush on him before.
its an usual thing you see.
i cried because im scared of losing a girlfriend like you/
who cared for me.
i promise you, if you want him, i'll give him to you.
i wont msg him anymore. i promise.
tears that rolled down from my eyes, are simply because i felt guilty.
you just dont understand me.
girl , im sorry from the bottom of my heart.

FARHAN, dont stop talking to me.
who will if not you.
who wil disturb me at work if not for you.
who will just disturb my boncit-NESS and pinching my face if not you?
haiyak. plsss lah i love you as a friend okay.
i need you at work to make me smile. okay?
promise me okay?
LOVED!

ELIYANA, be my best okay.
who will care for me when i cry if not you.
who will help me if im in need.
who will hug me if im sad.
who will just love me as who i am... *the noisy, irritatin girlfriend of yours. hehs
who will? other than you..

IZZATI, be my bestfriend everyday okay.
who will just be there for me.
who will cry with me when i cry.
who will go crazy with me.
who will go "gugugaga" about nothing..hahaha
just be the one that you are now.

ZAINUDDIN, *nothing to confess*
*nothing to say*
*nothing to talk about*
just the person who changed me.

im here letting my misses and loves to you people.
okay. plsss just be there.
cause just now, and right now, i need you guys badly in my life..
i just LOVE you guys alot...(:

LOVED;
eQa

okay.. i think i have to say bye and goodnight to everyone..
my time to go lalaland...
peace! (:

probably im not yet ready for a new relationship?
hahha.you're too good. suddenly i thot so of this.
you can find a better person. im not tt perfect girl who can be a perfect girlfriend for you.
when he himself cannot tolerate with this useless girlfriend attitude.
see how useless i am okay.
guys leaving me of not contributing and giving commitment on our relationship.
so i think its best for you to find other better girls out there. im sorry.
to YOU, im sorry. but we can still be friends.
i love you, you see. but my heart needs him. loves him.
your love to me is nice, but the love has yet to come and heal this broken heart..
hahaha. eqa bobal mcm phm..hahaha.
okay but im speaking the truth lah. if he really loves me, he would be willing to wait for me. like how zai does.. see.
true love are hard to find. haiyak. i dont noe lah.
watever it is, hey love, i like you. but it has to take step by step okay.
LOVES:eQa

nd hello smellyheads!
i just got back from school. oh im fcuking tired lah can? sleepy also..
oh wat a sleepyhead i am. school sucks today. projects, projects and projects.
but the happiest thing is that CHEW was not around. hahahaha.
im soooo happy. btw, hey girl if you want tt, i'll give it to you. you're always welcome to get it. *smiling*
smelly me not yet shower. hahaha
oh ya smellyheads...
after BEO(business events oragnisation) just now, which is at 4, the usual girlfriends sat at a pondok maybe. dont now wats the name. hehs. okay. waiting for three more girlfriends. and as we were talking and laughing happily, i suddenly saw a frog hopping towards us lah okay! i shouted and we ran..
hahahah. that was funny okay. you see the three anak dara's was shouting in the school mcm sekolah tu bapak aku pnye! hahahah
funny lah.. people the frog is disgusting okay! urghhhh! *geli*
okay lah people. i think its already time for me to sleep..hahahhah
*nites* no sorry smellyheads, wrong.. its *afternoon* hehs...(:

bye SMELLYHEADS(:

ohh. how shud i say this? i miss zai? ya.. i doo. really. seriously.
i need you here. leading me as how you did these past months we're togth. i need you badly.
im smiling and laughing outside but no one understands my inner part of feelings.
if you were to read this post of mine, i just wanna tell you i miss you alot. i noe ive not been a great girlfriend. but youve changed me alot. from asking me stop smoking. i tried, but ive cut down alot. but you knew i only smoked too much if im stress. you 're the only guy who loved me the way i want. i need you badly baby. how i wished if we were togth again. i promised i will change for the best of our relationship. but i noe you woudnt want this to happend. hermm. its okay lah.
i can cry in the inside but i will still smile on the outside.
since tt day, you've treated me lyk a doll whom you cant talk to. you dont treat me lyk you used to animore.baby, im sorry your father knew about that. im sorry i made you cry. im sorry i dissapoint your parents and you. im sorry for everything. but i promise you and i promise myself i will change for the better. give me this chance. baby, people is asking about us. i dont noe wat to say. people whu noes, understand me, people whu dont noe, is talking bad things about you. and people whu really really dont understand is puting the blame on me. and i really admit its my fault. plss. baby plsss. i need you badly.
i noe you wouldnt want us to be back togth cause ive hurt you twice. but im just telling everyone here that i miss and love you alot. only that im shy to let my feelings out to you and to let you noe that i need you in times. i prefer to be alone not with you cause i noe i would let my anger out to you. but you and people doesnt understand me. i dont mean to hurt you. and i tot u wud understand. whereas you told a bestfriend of mine that i didnt give time for our relationship. i noe i was wrong on that part. but i do not want to disturb you. a girlfriend with so much problem. would you want to spent time with me the whole day? i noe you wouldnt. sedangkan you takde time nak msg i?
i love you. alot. i mean alot. i dont mean to hurt you and your family. im sorry.
baby, forgive me. the smoking thing, im trying my best now. ive not been buying ciggarettes the past one week. but i do smoke. but not always. really. if i can stop drinking for your sake, why wouldnt i stop smoking for your sake? you just have to wait. you said you would wait....
BABY, i remembered when you hold my hand tight, when you hugged me, when you say, "baby, i love you" plssss.. i wan this thing back badly. not to say im desperate or what, its just tt i miss him alot.

BESTFRIEDNS, plsss understand me. he's just th normal guy who loves me the way i am. i noe he do loves me. i think its my wrongdoing towards him.ive not been concentrating on him. haiyak. but the other thing is that i think he have a new girl. maybe. im not sure. haiz....
plss understand me people. i just need him. plssss. badly...

if BESTFRIENDS wanna find me a new boyfriend, pls find me a guy who can help me change like how zai does. plssss. if that guy really can be like him, i love you people lah. but watever kay girls....hahahaha.i want him! bluek! but this new guy quite cool maybe? herm... sorry.. but heart still craving for his love. but if you can love me now, i promise maybe i will give u an ans... LOVES, EQA



PS: baby, im happy to know you. and i love you alot. from the bottom of my heart.. Eqa Sayang Zai. (: im soryry once again for my wrong-doings. i promise i'll change baby.. from me to you....LOVES. *winks*

how long have i not updated?
okay thats so long. but bullshit lah blog. its lyk making me irritated. ive updated the past 2 weeks but it cant publish. as i was darn lazy so i decided not to update anymore. haha. btw, theres so much story to tell but i think its not the time yet. hehs..
btw, schools has started. and its good to be back to school. the food, the classrooms and the sleeping in class. but the bad thing to be back. eqa have to be the GOOD MONITRESS. blarhs. what sia.. chew have been scolding me these past few days. she said ive change alot. ive started smoking lah watever shit lah. its lyk ive been smoking for so long ready lah. she dont noe mah. bodoh. i hate her sia. lyk want to step2 the face. YAKDUSH!
ive not been meeting yana and ati. haiz. yana's change. ati dont want tok to me. haiz. and aishah is so much different now. how? my bestfriend all gone. haiyak.
i miss them alot. the old dem. urghh.
btw, i love liza, inah, aydah, syafiqah and jenn alot cn? they make my day lah. hahahah. cool. LOVES. not to forget you aishah. you're the best. but i dunno why ure so much different. haiya. nvm lah. but you guys are still the best at sch.. my laughters. hehs.
today im very bored. went out with the usual girlfriends, without aydah and aishah today. its very fun lah. hahaha. but the boring part we went home early today. bored kan? its lyk the ferst time lah we went home early. and now, i dont noe wat to do. want sleep, too early. so decided to blog. hahaha. cool. kay. i'll stop here den. its fun to have you guys people.!
LOVES(: