god noes hw i fill now. im crying badly. how i wish this doesnt happen. tu u, dun tell anione about wat i told u. im holding my trust on u. i love u. ure the most loving person in the werld ive ever noen. ure loved hunnie! forever!

hello! okae. here i am. since yesterdae i so byk time nk update. tudae im just so lazy la okae. just wanna update with u wats tudae k..

we had tu come down for tarian. even though, we sec 4's supposed tu step down reaD. nd bcoz, this cuming thurs we have tu perform our SYF dance for the youth dae thingy. watever. haha. nd tudae was damn tiring la. cikgu teach us new dance. which is Zapin hip hop. seriously if tt dance, cikgu let the new dancers dance for some occasion... im gonna cry sei. tt dance is so damn nice u noe.. i fill lyk its the best dance we've ever learnt. hahaha. nd cikgu sup2 said we cn dance for dunearnite! yay! 'N' level cuming up. omg! ndnd im not reaD lar sey. we finished sch october maeb. tts y cikgu said cnn. hhaha. okae..

im tired lar. my eyes lyk half closed. haha. okae. gdbye lover! hehes. k watever eqa.. c ya ppl soon!

ndnd! tuesdae, we have tu dance the asmaradana thingy lak.. haiyooo. k tooldes!

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funny lar. okae. bye! the above one, i did it myself... hahahaha

okae. i forgot tu update u about this. oh god! show is cuming! i mean. nxt week. NXT WEEK. oh god. ive started feeling nervous now. coz i fill lyk im not tt reaD yet. coz i noe i still nid more practice on dancing. nd now, dancing for big shows?? coz its lyk there's so many popular dance groups lyk sriwana nd teater tari era all tt. nd im kinda nervous thinking bout nxt week. shit man!okae here i update tu u k.

8 july 2007,
Rewang Nak Tari Show,
Victoria Teater, 8-10?? [haha]
dance group performing:
Teater Tari Era, Sriwana , Azpirasi , Tepak Sireh nd wat more i dunno. haha.

okae. tts it. im nervous. okae. gdbye love! ((:

eqa misses them! *lovelovelove*

im sick nd tired of this. u want it, here u go. im not gonna force u animore. its yr life nw. be happy nd forget me. its been so long ive watching u. omfg! wat happened tu u?? u lied, u forget me nd go with someone else?? oh god! im so happy. i dun wanna treat u lyk a little kid animore. its up tu u. wat else cud i sae. if ure happy, im happy for u. for the sake of love, u cn go. im not forcing u animore. im so sick nd tired. i cnt make sure, u gonna come back. but wat i noe, i do love you. but this tyme for real, im leaving u for u tu be happy. with tt someone. im not gonna turn back. hell go tu u. im really tired of this. one after another. wat else cud i sae?? u didnt noe hw much i cared for u. how hard i opened this heart for u tu come back. nd this wat happened? but du u ever think of me?? haha. u msged her behind my back. nd u didnt even msged me wen i nid u badly?? nowadaes, u dont even tok tu me or even col me tu sae u love me or miss me animore?? hah! so wonderful nd kind of u. i really appreciate watever had happened in our lifes. im so darn happy tu this kind of shit u gave me. all the best. gd luck hunnie. gonna have fun dont u?? heh! but one thing for sure. im not gonna let u come back nd opened my heart. enuf for the months wat u had done tu me. i hate u. so much. gd luck for u nd her. make sure u make her happy with yr love lyk hw u gave it tu me. love; u r the best guy who give me his fullest love ive ever noen. i hearts u so much. takkaire. nd GD LUCK!

its yr life nw, go on. i not forcing u tu be forever with me animore. baby; ure loved!

hunny, im so happy tu noe, u found new one. coz ive found a new one tuu after u left. im sorry but, u hurt me ferst.

all the best! I LOVE YOU. dont u find me animore. coz i wont entertain ppl whu found new love tu replace me. dont u wery. i still have my skakiesmekia. haha! they're my life now, nd forever.

SKAKIESMEKIA is forever LOVED!

people!!! I LOVE SKAKIESMEKIA more!!!!!!

okae. hello again okae. so...

yesterdae lyk planned, we went tu ira hse. nd we had so much fun there okae. we shared our love stories which make our life so complicated while wacthing jerut purut. but we didnt concentrate on the movie laar. we toked more. haha. but wenever theres the jerut purut we will shout tgth. lyk... amira was always the one whu shouted ferst. hehs. klakar lar. den we toked again until 430 where we decided tu go out for training. we walked tu cck int with efa. tu tmn efa. den me nd ira go straite tu ut cc. nd we arrived there, there's oni kak fifa nd abg faiz. so nd so. nd we started on the dances. nd yesterdae was oso very tiring u noe. cikgu change some of the steps. nd tudae, we had tu go tu PA for preview tunit. it was supposed at 2-6 lar. but den it changes tu 2-10. omfg lar! i almost terkejot okae? so long nk mampos.... but den, cikgu said tt the joget dancers which is me, ira, mazlan nd kak fidah cn come at 5 onwerds. yayness lar! oni the contemp dancers have tu come as early as 2. haha. naseb sei. den.. yesterdae i dunno wat happen tu mummy which i told her tt i wanted tu go tu watch the cheerleading comp at serangoon lar but she scolded me. den i told her i wanted tu cut my hair. she kept quiet. nd i noe wat exactly she meant la. she olways has forbid me tu cut my hair. but i insist on it. coz my hair is alreaD long lar. but she still says no! ishk. i fill so watever sei! den she didnt tok tu me since yesterdae nd tudae i toked tu her she didnt sae aniting. nd tt, i knew, shes been angry with me. nd i so the tk sampai hati wanna go cut hair w/o her approval uhs. nd yesterdae guess wat?? wen i asked her again she sae wat?? "pergila aku da tk suker kau." nd i klua from her room nd went tu my room nd i cried uhs. she's lyk wats rong sei yesterdae?? spi2 rumah dari tarian jer, she doesnt tok tu me. nd i dunno wat tu sae animore. haiz. i fill so left out. nd now, shes been more kind tu kakak den me. i hate them! ishk!

nd tudae, i will be miting ira nd maeb kak fidah at cck at 330 pm. tu go tu PA. for preview. so have fun.. :)

hello! okae. tudae lyk i told u rite? i supposed tu go out with my sdr rite?? nd hell ya i tell u this. i was on my wae dere. nd i was areaD at marsiling uhs. nd my sdr said tt she cnt go out. nd nvm. i waited for anyone whu wants tu go out with. msged ira, efa nd afiq. ira cnt go out. efa doesnt reply my msgs okae! shes slipping lor. nd den coled afiq he didnt pick up, msged, he didnt reply. i waited there for almost one hr for any three of them tu reply. nd i decided tu col efa! nd guess wat? she just woke up. haahaha. nd so, i took 187 tu her hse. waited again. nd here i am at her hse. scary2 lar. her mum looks so fierce. hehe. sorie fa. i lurfe u hunnie. hee. nd now, she asked me tu have luch ferst here den go tu ira's hse ltr. so see u guys maeb tmr? haha. okae. buhbye! chalobeteh!

eqa loves you la. hee. :)
<3

herm. hello. it seems lyk ive been roting at home again nd again for this week. herm. nd yayness! tmr at least i got tarian tu go tu. herm.. tmr im meeting my kakak sdr lar. yayness! at last! da lame tk jumper die. shes missed laar sey! herm. im gonna make this happen tmr. make sure tmr, me, kak ikin, ana nd neez gonna have so much funfunfun tght. yayness!

gonna slip la. boring! gd afternoon! have fun.....

loved!

`eqa.


janjikn yang kau akan kembali waktu yang kau katakan. ure loved hunnie.

die syg aku 'kot'

im in love with this person la. but he lives at malaysia. nd afiq is mad at me as i am acting lyk a malaysia girl. which i love tu tok lyk.. jgn fikir aper2 'kot'..... hes angry with me as im saying 'kot'. haha. nd he said im crazy in love with tt guy.

no la. im just admiring him since he wanted tu knal2. hahaha. afiq. im sorry. hehe. mane tau die jodoh aku kot........... hahah

kk wateva. eqa stopit k! hees.

have fun ppl!

eqa in love! :)

hey. i guess tudae i rot at home again. haha.

i think im cutting my hair tmr, maeb the nxt dae. herm. entah lar. waiting for money from daddy jer. herm. i think i just cutting my hair short till shoulder lar. my hair is long reaD. haha. or maeb had a free cut from kakak. haha. okae. maeb je la. tgk cm mane. if kakak sudi nk guntingkn, ape salah nye. haha.

okae. tudae is damn boring lar sey. yesterdae went tu send library books at lot1. nd i saw org yg tk perlu dijumpai. herm. den i borrowed one book. 'kasih antara kita' but. its seriously very mengejutkn i finised reading it yesterdae jgkla. its lyk tt story is gerek lar sey. nd im getting in love in malay novels. omg. the book is nice. nd im reading it again. nd its bored coz i got no more books tu read. herm. seriously bored giler. haix.

its left with 5 more daes tu school lar sey! boring nye. god damn it! how i wish school holidaes r longer. haix. nd im getting lazy this week. waking up late. been doing sth tt mummy doesnt lyk. but its true lar sey. im getting lazy bumbum now.

EQAEQA its time for u tu wake up. nd homewerks r not done yet. sentuh pon tidak. omg! haha. lazy2 bum. haix. tudae theres anugerah lar sey. watching it lar. herm.

act i got no more tu sae. so have fun ppl!!!!

i love ********* :)

okae. hello. it seems like its been a long time i last updated hor?? okae. ira. ive updated. hahah

wen was the last tyme??

oh it was on the 13th. haha. lame tuu. okae.

14th june, did nothing i guess. rot at home as usual. didnt go aniwhere. just du the usual thing one dae. nd off tu sleep. nth tu du. nd usual me lazy so no updates on tt dae.

15th june, went out at 2 mit all the mentor peeps tu have a some kind of treat from coach kenny. the food there is so expensive nd its lyk u just eat the finger foods, a piece of cake nd a drink nd u cn be full lar eat tt onli tau. its lyk nasib baek kiter tk makn byk2. haix. den we finished at ard 430. nd den mit kakak at wdlds nd den off we go tu watch shrek. lyk usual. kakak belanje. no money lar sey! haha. den went in nd we found mummy nd adeq sitting bside us lar. haha. so funny lar the show. cute babies. haha. okae. den off for dinner. but im totally full after eating just now. so i just ate a french fries. haha. okae. den reached home at 915. nd its lyk ive missed the APM lar sey! haix. boring uhs. den slept late. haha. nth tu sae. k. watever.

16th june. woke up late a lil bit. den siap2 tu go my cousins hse coz she just gave birth nd den shes having the kenduri lar. i was lyk supposed tu help them [ the tue2 ] cook nd do sth lar at least. lyk usual, i was the one whu eat nd jage the baby lar. haha. okae. den at 545 i went off from bb tu ut tu have training. mit ira at mrt station den off we go for practice. herm. the practice tudae doesnt do aniting much tu the traditional lar. so. lucky me nd ira whu r just performing for the traditional. nd no contemp for us, we rot outside teaching the new dancers inang isit? apape lar. but, we laugh2 here nd there with kak fidah, amer nd mazlan. its lyk we r toking somehow, but kak fidah is lyk asking us again nd again. mcm gini lar.. "kau makan ape??" she sae, "minum air" mcm gitu lar. some sort lyk tt. nd we cnt stop laughing lyk hell lar sey. haha. nd ten mins tym b4 10, we were told tu go in back. nd its finished! yay! haha. den had toks from cikgu. den we celebrated syuk2s birthdae. HAPPY BIRTHDAE SYUKRI! the cakes are nice lar sey. nd we saboed him. haha. kesian die. baju kotor. hee. den after tt sent ira at the bustop b4 going lpk with afiq nd iqa. coz no one at home nd i dun have the keys. coled daddy nd he fetched me at afiqs blk there. den went off tu cousins hse again. at 12 am okae?? haha. haiyo.. went home at 130. nd reached home helped mummy with the jellies tu be brought tumoro. nd i slept at 230 am okae?? haha.

17th june. mummy woke me up at 930 am nd asked me follow daddy tu johor tu go neneks adeq son getting married. okae la. org kahwin. senang. i dont want tu follow but mummy forced me. so wat sey! nd i was lyk malas giler nye. herm. nd i have this malas tu siap on tt dae lar. u see my photos there?? tt was seriously the paling malas nk siap pei keje! okae. haix. reached there nd its lyk WOW ! lar sey. the dewan is lyk a hotel place. nd the decorations are totally nice lar sey. great theres my cousins from malacca nd i was with them for the rest of the dae lar. fun lar sey. it was a no regret tt i went there lar. nd there was this malay dancers. from primary school lar. their dance uhs, haiyo! mcm gerek gitu. nd its lyk they r very enthu lar sey. very2 tau. kiwek. i was sitting there i was lyk. " kak not, u see?? drg menari bkn maen lawa. power lar sey!" my cousins was lyk " biasela johor pye penari sume smgt2." my god. u guys shud see lar. smgt giler! haha. den we lyk had so much tyme more. nd we eat the bubur hitam. its nice lar sey. their foods r way more better then s'pore lar sey! nd something funny happen. haha. i will tell the story one dae lar. haha. very2 funny. seiz... hahaha. cute lar. okae. then i slept in the car nd daddy drive tu cousins hse lar. da spi nd lyk i sae. "mak kau makan lagi ehk?? aku da kyg giler nye lar" haha. but i eat jgk tknk kecikkn hati kakak sdr ku. hehe. syg kak eni!
NUR LIYANA is loved lar sey! cute giler!

nd dese, r some photos of the pengantin. my pakcik lar kirekn..

okae. nd tudae i think i still rot at home. haha. okae. buhbye.


kes malas nk siap. tgk muke nie?? dgn rambot beserabai gini. haha

okae. hello! haha. ive woke up early in the morning tu watch my favourite show. hah. sanggop whoa! hehe. okae. nd ive shower not lyk always where i shower at 2 or 3 in the afternoon. this few weeks ive been very good nd very early! nd no more pemalas type of girl nimmore. somtimes, TKPELA! haha.

gonna have training ltr at 4. herm. shows cuming up. which is on the 8 ehk?? im not sure ler lupe. hee gonna have fun again yeah??

im so upset lar. i cnt follow afiq they all tu sentosa yesterdae. mummy didnt give the green lite. but daddy said yes! hmpf! aper sei. the most upseting is tt on the 8 of june pon i didnt go with my darlings tau! aper sei. boring uhs gini. nd i cnt go out this week i dunno y. nd i been membuat keje bodoh at home lar! stupid kn?? nd i cn only go out for trainings nd schools. aper sei. haix.

okae. nd so, i wanna have my lunch nd den maeb rest tidor lagi! haha. den after tt will siap2 tu go mit ira nd afiq pt mrt station lar tuu. herm okae. gd bye. nd ive changed my blogskins! hahah.

SKAKIESEMKIA loved! <3

i was browsing thru my archive. nd i found a very long story about me nd rudy. ohh. i didnt believe it tt i love him so much uhs. haha. okae. frankly, i do miss him still lar. i browse it more nd i found this...

"i seriously fallen in love with u.. n i wanna b with u..klu u sudi..klu tk,tkpe."

tt was wat he msged me wen he wanted me tu be his girlfren. oh my god. ohh so sad siak. i read it nd my tears started tu roll down my cheeks. y?? i dont noe. herm. i miss him though. his laughters nd many more. i cnt believe it since he broke up with me, i didnt success in love animore. till now. nd now, i dont even have a guy whu really cn make me love him as how much he did. i dunno y. but.. herm. dunnola. nd seriously i still noe, he's with Zin. but the thing is, i miss him. y wats wrong with me. herm. nd i really want him tu noe, tt i really love him. herm. my heart still needs his love. but thruthly. i noe, this wudnt happen. NO!

nd the post about him was almost very funny. i didnt noe tt i am brave enuf tu tell him in a blog tt i love him so much. i noe, everyone wud if she/he loves tt someone rite?? but wat i noe, i don say it straite if its about love. nd i dunno how. haha. okae. nd now, i fill so upset about sth. nd wat i noe, i wanna love a new person whu will love me as he does before nd i cud love tt person lyk how i love rudy. whu i really treasure our relationship was with MUHD RUDY FIRDAUS. tts it. :)



haix. i dunno wat tu sae. but i love them nd u tuu. but i wanna noe the truth y eveything happen without my notice. i don even noe the story if ever she wud tell me. ohh, how cruel cn u be?? oh my god. ure loved by me. but wat is this?? oh my god. i dunno how tu sae this truely tu tt person. but nemind. everything i will keep it to myself. i love all of u. even if u hate me. but pls for the sake of me nd her, pls!

nd ira, thnx for the help bebeh. ure loved! <3

haix. everyone loved! :)