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Saturday, May 26, 2007

hey2. nd yayness. sch holidaes r here. gahgahgah. but truly thi sux. i have dnt, ss nd maths uhs. boring sak! herm. nd yesterdae had d gig at sch. nd this yrs one is okae lar. fun jgk lar. but some part r boring... hahah. nd so, tt dae tourism went tu various places. nd we took many2 photo. haha. okae2. i really have tu rush for training. gawd. last min. kk.. i update aft training. buhbye. sorie2. :)

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Tuesday, May 22, 2007

hey. gah. ive changed my blogskin. boring lar. nd this week been going home late uhs. this week i have tu go home at 3.30 uhs. bodoh sak. but fun. coz we get tu learn or maeb get tu noe more about wat we interest in. lyk now, wat i get was tourism. which it is really wat i lyk. but i seriously jealous with the image consultant peeps. they get tu du facial nd even go for catwalks nd photoshoots uhs! damn it. haha. nvm lar. but fun lar. tmr, tourism will be going out from school. dunno go where. herm. okaelar. nothing more tu sae.. yay! this week last dae sch! gahgahgah! takkaire lar. buhbye! :)

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Friday, May 18, 2007

okae. im bored. haha. ive been so noisy tudae. kak ita is angry. haha. shes irritated. gahgah. sorie bebeh! i dunno y. tudae i was late. i alarmed at 530 but den i woke up at 615. so i rushed nd took the mrt at 700. lyk im late lar. den tudae i am so restless jln from gombak tu sch. is lyk very long. pnat sei. but den. now, in sch im awake! gahgah! i fill lyk disturbing ppl. haha. esp kak ita. khekhekhe. nd yesterdae we receive our exams paper. nd so du tudae. nd its so dissapointing u noe! ishk! the rest paper havent get back. nd ya! i forgot tu tell u lar. im in school now. hahahahhaahahah.

yesterdae went tu hillgrove for our cluster comp. its lyk the judges r BIAS. everyone said. sorie... blueks! shitos. its lyk we've been holding the NAIB JUARE for alreaD 2 yrs uhs. den this yr we lost! fucked up sei. everyone not happy uhs. damn it. okae. fine nvm. lyk some ppl said. "ini sume adat pertandingan" adat kau! hmpf! nvm lah.

okae. nd so i continue k. ASEAN dance comp is getting nearer. god! scared sei. we got our class photos just now. haha! my face look so diff! gahgah. okae wateva lar.

boring. update more at home. tudae after gonna have english oral for prelim. den after tt goig kampong alone.... tu send the baju's no one folloqwing i think. yelah whu am i?? haha. okae go!

chalobeteh! :)

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Monday, May 14, 2007

hey. haha. okae. im sorie didnt update yesterdae. okae. yesterdae was mother's dae. nd we celebrated mother's dae at ecp. with cik sidah's nd wak arat's fam. celebrated lyk hell. haha. fun lar. den saw suzy at ecp. nd did i told u daddy had a new car?? okae. i supposed i did. haha. nd i just cut my frindge. nd it sux lyk hell! ishk! nvm. im trying my best. okae. just now, didnt had sch. mit suzy at 1000. nd went tu sch tu take money from supandi. den we went off tu geylang[kampong] tu look for baju for this thursdae. herm. we took a red baju, with red sluar-skirt. with a black coset.[did i spell correctly?] haha. okae. dunno lar if the rest is happy with it. herm. okae this is fun..

we reached kampong at 1230. it havent even open wen we were there. so we waited nd walked ard. lyk for 20 mins we ulang alik the whole kampong looking at p.ramlees photo nd other veterans photo. haha. funny lar. me, suzy nd fareez is having fun. haha. we went back tu the place at ard 1250. we sat down nd kept laughing lyk nk pecah perot. herm. den the kampong collection was opened! yay! haha. but den we had tu wait for another 10 misn for the baju all tu be out nd den we were told tu look for the baju's. nd we decided tu one is lyk taking 15 mins uhs. nd finally we both take tt decision of taking tt one suit. coz it looks nice. hee. den we looked for accesories nd we found a nice one for the putri nd okae one for the dayang. haha. but nice la overall. den we went off from kampong at 230 lidat. we went home. nd im home. herm. fun lar. b4 going out of the kampong we were supposed tu walk again at the veterans photo. nd fareez were lyk "alah. asik jln tpt nie jer. naek boring aku" haha. okae. we had fun! yay! hahahahaha. okae. off.

buhbye. update again. :)

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Saturday, May 12, 2007

okae! my exams r over! gahgahgahgah!

yesterdae after exams, went tu ati's hse tu take th syf cd. den went back tu sch's bridge. tu fetch murni. den after tt i went home straite. tk psl2 i kena mara from my mum. lyk wth sak. after tt siap2 tu go out with my lurfely2 people. went out tu watch "jangan pandang belakang" . okae. thnx for the belanje! i lurfe u bebeh! th show is okae la. its not tt seram. but its suspend lar. the ghost is so the fake tau! go watch uhs. but i noe byk da tgk. the ghost is very fake sak! ishk! then after tt went straite tu uT cc. got makan2 for the karya thingy. then at 8 the ASEAN dancers all go tu kallang for training. all the girls sumbat kerete cikgu. haha. den reach there ard 840 lidat lar. herm. den we finishes at 1030. nd daddy fetch me. nd went for a small supper. herm. den went home straite. herm

nd i forgot tu tell. daddy got a new car! yay! gahgahgah! im so happy. having a car is lyk our family wished uhs. coz daddy has not been driving a car[his own car] for about 18 yrs reaD. nd hes so happy tu had tt car. heeee. nd tudae maeb daddy nd cik sidah's family bringing us tu ecp tu ovenight there coz tmr is mothers dae. hee. HAPPY MOTHERS DAY tu all mummy. :)

nd yay! ive finish my paper. nd mondae tu wednesdae, i nid not come tu sch. hee. yay! nd tuesdae theres practice or i think rehearsal if im not rong for the ASEAN dance. okae. tts it la. c ya aite! :) wanna continue watching "LAILA ISABELLA" ... :) buhbye. update more aite. takkaire :)

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Thursday, May 10, 2007

how du i face my frens
wen my eyes r swollen.
i lurfe eu but eu left me alone.
todae was the 10th.
eu left me without a reason.
i wish i cud hug eu now.
im crying badly
wanting eu back by myside.
where did yr promise go?
im so upset. im crying.
eu dont care animore.
why du eu be so cruel?

itx okae. im muving on.
with someone.
whom i "lurfe"
maeb this is wat they call "lurfe"

im sorie i lied tu eu.

i told eu i will alwaes be there.
one year is enough.
waiting is werthless.
im crying. still waiting.
eyes r getting more swollen.
no one noes im forcing all this reality.
i lurfe eu.
i miss eu badly rudy.

i hate you *****
for taking my lurfe awae from him

"im sorry 4 lying tu the both of eu"

eu still left me alone in a fantasy full of darkness

written at 0900am.

its a long wae tu go.

eu had your love.

so do i.

but its all a lie.

for me tu love someone.

eu gave me faith.

but eu crushed it.

im getting sick

because eu left me alone.

its been a year oh darling.

where would eu go far?

im still here waiting.

for that strentgh and faith

tu help me up forever. again.

oh. why? what happened?

im sorry but im not into you.

hey baby,

you're now mine.

but its hard for me tu sae.

YOU ARE.

because you are not e one im waiting.

rudy-was the name.

*****-was the one whu came.

why?? is this all a lesson for me?

oh. pls. forgive me my darling.

im not keeping my promise.

nd so do eu.

I HATE YOU!

HEAVEN WAS HERE WITH ME

written at 1150am.

if u ppl cn see. theres two person in the story. including me theres three. hey. but some ppl wud understand this.nd yeah. left one dae for my paper nd tts it. okae maths paper one is okae. but. but. maths paper two is god damn hard uhs. blueks! nd tmr is my last paper. which is bio paper. nd thats it! ahah! tmr afiq is belanja-RING me tu watch muvie. watching JANGAN PANDANG BELAKANG. herm. mummy said its boring. but many said its nice. dunno la. buhbye den. c ya guys soon aite. maeb tmr. haha. buaix!!! :)

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Tuesday, May 08, 2007

im trying my best tu study for my maths paper tmr. but den i cnt concentrate. it cnt go intu my head. herm. tmr is maths paper sei. paper one. nd im scared if i cnt pass my maths this time. ishk! ive done my very best for the last test. nd i hope i cn for this mid yr. hais. god damn i hope so much i cn. nd tmr end paper at 0930. herm..

just now ended sch at 0915. waited for efa den we went home. efa ended at 1000. so. we waited. hell im so upset tt maeb efa living. herm. how cn dis happen! no efa no! u cnt go babe. where will E.S.M.E go?? ohh no! herm....

okae. i end here k. fridae last paper. nd i hope my results will turn out tu be okae.

oh ya. just now, the chemistry paper. kinda okae. nasib all the topics tt i studied came out. i hope i will pass my chem. herm. i have the confidence. but dunno la ehk. okae. la. buhbye! :) update more tmr maeb. buhbye. :)))))

heaven's love.

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Sunday, May 06, 2007

okae. ive changed my blogskin. gahgah. im bored la. nd ira. sorie i took yr previous song. heee. since u have a new song. kahkhakha. okae. i dont fill satisfied with this blogskin. ltr la. i'll change again. hah. now. im gonna have my shower nd get reaD for madrasah. nd yeah! i havent study! gahgahgah! :0

usual me. mdrasah i dont usually study for madrasah exam. heee. okae go! buhbye! :)

i dont nid yr love :)

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okae. i forgot tu update yesterdae. nd yeah noe wat?? yesterdae was 5th may lar deng! no one noes wat so special bout yesterdae. but i noe, some of them noe. nyahaha. yesterdae i was happy. but though im still sick, im happy. haha. yesterdae was my ever happy dae. last yr was oso on the 5th. tt was somthing tt made me very happy. haha.

so. yesterdae ira came my hse. we supposingly wanted tu study. but den in the end we ended up watching tv. haha. lyk usual. ppl whu come my hse wont end up studying but we ended up either watching tv or playing the comp. haha. nd so. aft oll tt. me nd ira ended went tu azpirasi at 6. herm. it was okae for yesterdae training. not many of them were. there. oh god. me nd ira has been forgetting the steps. lyk we didnt remember wats nxt after the step. siak je. haha. okae. so we ended the traning at 9. i was sick. i kept coughing. its lyk so damn urghh! my throat really sucks sei. my mineral water finishes b4 i finishes training. saket sak hati. herm. nd yah. on this cuming fri, exams over. but wait lar! blom mondae! dah kanchong. ishk im scared sak. tmr's ss nd geog. den on fri at 6 we have tu go uT cc got makan2 ehk?? i think so lar. den went straite tu kallang for practice for the ASEAN. nd the show is lyk in 2 or 3 weeks time. nd im scared lar bodoh! haha. okae la.

i still dunno if i shud accept u. im sorie if i hurt u. but im truly sorie for not accepting u coz i dont fill tt love. nd im sorie coz i dont nid ur love. i tried. but i cnt. im sorie. but wat if we sae we just stay lyk we r. bestfrens. im sorie. nd takkaire. :)

hate me for all i care. :) but im sorie

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Friday, May 04, 2007

malay paper-over!
english paper-over!
nd im sick. so sick. ishk! from yesterdae sak. yesterdae i had a high fever. no one at home. just took panadol nd i slept till this morning. this morning woke up pon tk berape sgt. i have tu g tu sch coz tudae had eng paper. so tried my best. nd its so irritating tt i keep sneezing in class during exams. ishk. very bad sei. its lyk im tired of sneezing uhs. tissues were full on my table. nd mineral water finishes b4 exam. which i kept coughing due tu my sore throat. herm. bad sei. nd till now, i cnt stop sneezing. herm. i think i just nid tu rest uhs. but see lar. how tu rest wen i lie down, my nose will be irritating nd keep sneeze. herm! ssh nye saket! nd i hate wen im sick uhs. i will sick for a long time one sei. ishk! mcm mane nie!!! okae. good tt eng paper is over. i was sick in class just now nd the paper is diff. nd my brain is lyk going tu pecah sei. urghh. nd now im home. i wanna rest more la. hope tumoro i cn be better. herm. klar. buhbye! update more soon. :)

dont ever thinking tu break her heart!
if u lurfe her, do it!
if u just being in her lyf tu break her heart, den forget it! its werthless.
she lurfes u nd wat du u expect more??
huhh??? u so cruel tu have lied tu her.
if u dared break her heart, u dare break my heart.

this goes on tu my other gfs. if ever any of u tried tu break my gfs heart or lied tu them . or even make something so bad, make sure u go thru me ferst! coz i love my gfs! theyre my everything. dun anyone dare do something bad tu us! bloddy creature! skakiesmekia is in one hart.

gfs, im here. i lurfe u guys! lurfe ya! :)

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Tuesday, May 01, 2007

holla. early morning wake up reaD. so not me. haha. getting reaD for ltr on. mitting murni at 1130 at cck station tu go kallang. herm. iqah nt going. she sick. den it fills lyk so boring sei iqah tkd. herm. nvm. nasib murmur ade sei. if not, i alone!! wuuui! heee. okae.

i ask everyone. du any of u hate me?? tell me y tuu. herm. y?? wat happen oso i dunno. tell me the truth people. im scared. :'(

okae lar. gtg. have tu rush now. havent mandi yet. hee. gdbye ppl. update more aft training. muax!

i lurfe SKAKIESMEKIA.
i lurfe MIIE.
i lurfe MIE. :))))))))))

takkaire babes! :)