i lost a world in me. i mean she mean a world tu me. but i lost her. tudae came tu sch nd received a letter. from a friend-cum-sister-cum-bestfriend-cum-lover-cum-everything. i cried immediately after reading. i cried almost every hour. assembly nd bio lesson i supposed. it was the craziest thang i tell ya! i got no one now, whu else? nd now, im home. nd i cnt stop crying. no one tu turn tu. whu tu tell tt im crying?? one of my family members?? oh nono. my friends?? whu?? ira?? ive been a burden tu her almost everydae. enuf. i dont wanna make her go more stress tu think about my problem. suzy?? she even had her own problem. me tu give her another problem?? no! nd here is the only place where i cn let out. im not sure if ure happy doing this decision.. coz i made a stupid decision. nd do u really happy tu c us cry?? hey,enuf of me crying. i do not want u tu cry. u promised. but where is it?? between me, eu nd ira. where?? we promised. esme still nids you. nd i still nids u. miie still nids u. nd everyone tuu. if this makes u really happy, den so be it. but im sure im hurt. if u nid another or new replacement, so be it. im okae with it. coz i noe, ive not been the gd sister cum girlfriend cum bestfriend cum lover. maeb by having a replacement, she wud give u more den me. im forcing myself tu let u go tu someone else. coz it doesnt seem lyk im trusted. im hurt. too hurt. a conflict between the 4 of us, really hurts me. 3 of us, loves u nd care for u. but this is ur decision. think b4 u sae switheart. forcing urself tu take the consequences alone, is werthless. with the 3 of us, maeb we cud help u. but, it doesnt seem lyk dat. coz im not trusted. her me out, even u cnt see im crying. find a new sister tt cn make eu feel happier. im forcing myseld tu let u go. nd u cn go. without turning back. if u found a new one, move on, nd forget abt me, since u want me tu do tt. but im not gonna do tt. c u cry, makes me wanna cry.nd ure not nd have not been a burden tu me at all! nd dont sae tt. ure everything tu me. but for yr happiness, i let u go.takkaire switheart.
setitis airmata yg jatuh ke tanah antara kita, terlalu menyakitkn hati. kerana ia mengugurkn perhubungan kita.
setitis airmata yg jatuh itu juga la saksi percintaan kita. betapa hebatnya cinta antara kita.
setitis airmata yang berlinangan dipipimu,mengalir juga dipipiku.
aku memerhatikn airmata itu mengalir dgn penuh sebak. kerna kau pernah menyatakn,airmata tidak akan pernah mengalir lagi antara kita.
kau juga pernah berjanji, tidak akan mengulangi perselisihan faham antara kita lagi.
dimana perginya janji2 itu semue? hanya tgl kenangan??
hanya tgl airmata utk menyelesaikn?
setitis airmata yang mengalir dipipi ini, tidak akn kering, kerna aku terlalu menyayangimu. dan airmata itu akan igtkn aku dgn dirimu. kerna kau telah menghidupkan diri ini pabila aku bersedihan dahulu. itu sume akn ku simpan hingga diri ini dihingappi tanah2 di perkuburan.
setitis airmata itu akn ku titiskn lagi waktu kematianku utk mengenangknmu yang berjanji utk berjumpa suatu hari nti.
yang kau janji, kite tidak pernah akn berpisah. tpi, ia terjadi juge. mateku bengkak tangisi pemergianmu.
maafkan kak eqa. Selamat tinggal sayang.[ku memaksa diriku utk melupaknmu demi kebahagiaanmu syg]
dirimu kn ku igt hingga bila2. hanya dirimu yang ku cintai wahai adeqku Murni Erdianti.
tk pernah aku lupa dgn;
Nur Afiqah syg Murni Erdianti.
SENTIASA INGAT DIRIKU DALAM DOAMU SAYANG.
yang sentiasa menyayangimu;
kak eqa. :')
EQA