im so bored. so wat if i write abt my life?? haha. im so bored. nd feeling realli down. y am i having this stupid feelings rite now. hmm. k now. my life oryte??
i don really like this guy. i dun even noe hym. nd one dae, my so called bestfriend came tu me nd sae tt the guy wanted me tu be his girlfriend. nd so i was attached with this guy named Zulfahmi. nd so i was attached with him on the 15th of April 2004. nd i was so shocked tt i accepted hym without any feelings?? urghh ii dunno lar eh. den the nxt dae where i dunno how did we end up breaking up nd i was attached with this guy named An'nuur on the 16th of April 2004 nd we ended up together for two yrs. but, we did go thru byk halangans!huhuh!. nd hu the hell said i was the one whum gave him a letter nd ask for a stead?? wtf! nd so we're attached for 5 mths nd we broke up coz he lyke this chinese girl. nd so everything happen lyk a couple did wen they broke up. so i cried. nd i were lyk asking for a patch. of coz ive nvr ever did tht in my lyf. so tt was the ferst tym. nd so he refused tu. but den wat hapened tu me tt i kept asking for a patch. tk tau malu nyer pompan! haha. bullshit! so embarrasing. nd so GUYS rite?? he asked me if i dared tu give him a kis on his lips. nd tt was the most scary thing i wanted tu do. bcoz biaselar sec 1. maseh mentah dlm percintaan. nd yet do tt thingy. nd so i took up the dare. nd i was actt scared tu do it coz its my ferst tym. cnor blame oso. but den i did it! ahaa. giler! nd then we patched up. nd we broke up ard november i think where i patched up with Zulfahmi nd then i go thru love with him. i love him do u noe?? but bcoz of sweet talks from An'nuur, i got back with him. nd i broke Zul's heart again! after two weeks i felt so bad bcoz of doing tt tu the someone whum i actt love?? nd i dunt even noe how did tt love come for me tu accept him as my lovely guy. nd ya. he is u noe?? damn shit! nd ya i broke up with An'nuur again during december holidaes if im not rong. bcoz i knal2 with this guy named Zairul. nd so, i got into relationship with Zairul. nd we were in relationships for about one month from 26th of December2004. coz we dont usually meet up nd bcoz of sweet talks AGAIN! nd so i endedup in a relationship with the same person.. An'nuur. nd we always ended up break nd patch. tts our thing always. but, i still do love him. no matter what he did nd wat he asked for. coz he used tu promise me one thing but now, where did tt promise go?? nd so after breaking up with him one the 16th of April 2006, i was attached with this guy named Danni. which i actt dunt like him. its just for the sake tu forget An'nuur. but den i cnt. so i broke up with danni on the 26th of April. nd tt was bcoz i got tu noe this guy from frenster. his name was Rudy. nd i broke up with danni on Rudy's birthdae. i didnt even actt expect for his love. coz i noe he still love his ex[Zin]. nd so i kill my tym everydae toking on t phone nd going out with him nd during tt week, which really make my heart broke fully we i got tu noe b4 my two yrs annivesarry with An'nuur, he actt had an affair bhd my back. which really made me cry lyk hell. he attached with ths girl named Syafiqah. nd im so really sad siak. but den i let my feelings out tu friends nd Rudy. nd so suddenly i was attached with rudy on the 5th of May 2006. which really make me happy. nd so after four das with him, i noe he cn help me forget An'nuur. nd YAY! he did. but den on the 10th of May 2006, he ask for a broke up. bcoz of some reasons lar. he did told me. nd i cried really badly for almost one week. which really make me more sad wen he actt the same as An'nuur. where after hym,another came gave me problem. nd its so fucking urgghh! but den after two weeks broke up with him, i got tu noe he's with his ex.. Zin. nd it really make me feel so heartless. i feel lyk im dead where both guys really treated me as toys when ive opened up my heart tu them. i feel so useless nd hopeless y i cnt be lyk others. nd then on 17th May 2006 i was attached with this guy named Syafiq. whum i dont even LYK him at all! but i tried coz i wanna forget both rudy nd annuur but den ternyata, i cnt. oh god. nd so now, im waiting for tht someone tu come back. onli whu noes, will noe. hehe. nd so im now been single for almost 3 mths. which its the longest tym for me tu be single. nyahaha. bad2. nd now, my lyfe leads with my darlink girlfriends. nd waiting still for someone whu cn open my heart lyk Rudy nd An'nuur did. oh god haha. tt was so unbelievable. hees. somedae, u will never noe, yr heart wud change. as for now, im not really mad at them nimore lar. coz i noe i cnt force love. nd i noe wen it comes for me. im grateful tu have u guys for my two past yrs. i LOVE all my ex boyfriends. so much love from me tu u. hees. i dont regret having u guys. nd i hope u guys tuu. im ready tu face challenges as i was there for almost 3 yrs. nd anyone whu nid advices on love, do msg me. coz ive been thru thick nd thin, goods nd bads nd everything with a guy. okae?? remember girls, dont ever let yr guy take advantage of u okae?? do col me anyone. haha. so long entry for today. gosh! happy2 always for all ppl whus having relationship. all the best guys! muax! :))). with love, eqa... update more! gd luck!
loves yu!
actualli thers more story tu tell. but perhaps tmr?? yaya..
buhbye!
lurfes**
EQA