hoha! hahaha. just came back from school. nd todae no tutorial nd tts y im here writing this post. nyaha.i was suppose tu do my hwks. but, ltr lar. tired. haha. yesterdae had madrasah nd after tt went tu training. which ended at 10. nd yesterdae trainings was the most gerek part. where we start the dance frm intro tu the end. nd yay! we had a topeng tu come out last part. after rupe2 pure2 dance. haha. nice2 one. the topeng all nice2 sia. hehe. i lurfe it lar. khekhekhe. nd okae. i got nth tu do! weehee. haha. wan sleep cn?? buhbye! update more okae. bye!
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Monday, February 26, 2007
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Sunday, February 25, 2007
here's the pics on 16 feb. GONGXI RAYA celeb. sorie for the late photos darlinks. =))
the joget jambu merah dancers. 
the zapin dancers
after shows ended
the zapin dancers again. formal lar u.. haha
me nd suzy.
murni nd me. i lurfe her! =))
me nd ira. lurfes! 
me nd ira after siap2 lar. hahai'll update everything tmr morning k. im sleepy ready, its 1.15. morning! haha
buhbye! takkaire.
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Friday, February 23, 2007
im so bored. so wat if i write abt my life?? haha. im so bored. nd feeling realli down. y am i having this stupid feelings rite now. hmm. k now. my life oryte??
i don really like this guy. i dun even noe hym. nd one dae, my so called bestfriend came tu me nd sae tt the guy wanted me tu be his girlfriend. nd so i was attached with this guy named Zulfahmi. nd so i was attached with him on the 15th of April 2004. nd i was so shocked tt i accepted hym without any feelings?? urghh ii dunno lar eh. den the nxt dae where i dunno how did we end up breaking up nd i was attached with this guy named An'nuur on the 16th of April 2004 nd we ended up together for two yrs. but, we did go thru byk halangans!huhuh!. nd hu the hell said i was the one whum gave him a letter nd ask for a stead?? wtf! nd so we're attached for 5 mths nd we broke up coz he lyke this chinese girl. nd so everything happen lyk a couple did wen they broke up. so i cried. nd i were lyk asking for a patch. of coz ive nvr ever did tht in my lyf. so tt was the ferst tym. nd so he refused tu. but den wat hapened tu me tt i kept asking for a patch. tk tau malu nyer pompan! haha. bullshit! so embarrasing. nd so GUYS rite?? he asked me if i dared tu give him a kis on his lips. nd tt was the most scary thing i wanted tu do. bcoz biaselar sec 1. maseh mentah dlm percintaan. nd yet do tt thingy. nd so i took up the dare. nd i was actt scared tu do it coz its my ferst tym. cnor blame oso. but den i did it! ahaa. giler! nd then we patched up. nd we broke up ard november i think where i patched up with Zulfahmi nd then i go thru love with him. i love him do u noe?? but bcoz of sweet talks from An'nuur, i got back with him. nd i broke Zul's heart again! after two weeks i felt so bad bcoz of doing tt tu the someone whum i actt love?? nd i dunt even noe how did tt love come for me tu accept him as my lovely guy. nd ya. he is u noe?? damn shit! nd ya i broke up with An'nuur again during december holidaes if im not rong. bcoz i knal2 with this guy named Zairul. nd so, i got into relationship with Zairul. nd we were in relationships for about one month from 26th of December2004. coz we dont usually meet up nd bcoz of sweet talks AGAIN! nd so i endedup in a relationship with the same person.. An'nuur. nd we always ended up break nd patch. tts our thing always. but, i still do love him. no matter what he did nd wat he asked for. coz he used tu promise me one thing but now, where did tt promise go?? nd so after breaking up with him one the 16th of April 2006, i was attached with this guy named Danni. which i actt dunt like him. its just for the sake tu forget An'nuur. but den i cnt. so i broke up with danni on the 26th of April. nd tt was bcoz i got tu noe this guy from frenster. his name was Rudy. nd i broke up with danni on Rudy's birthdae. i didnt even actt expect for his love. coz i noe he still love his ex[Zin]. nd so i kill my tym everydae toking on t phone nd going out with him nd during tt week, which really make my heart broke fully we i got tu noe b4 my two yrs annivesarry with An'nuur, he actt had an affair bhd my back. which really made me cry lyk hell. he attached with ths girl named Syafiqah. nd im so really sad siak. but den i let my feelings out tu friends nd Rudy. nd so suddenly i was attached with rudy on the 5th of May 2006. which really make me happy. nd so after four das with him, i noe he cn help me forget An'nuur. nd YAY! he did. but den on the 10th of May 2006, he ask for a broke up. bcoz of some reasons lar. he did told me. nd i cried really badly for almost one week. which really make me more sad wen he actt the same as An'nuur. where after hym,another came gave me problem. nd its so fucking urgghh! but den after two weeks broke up with him, i got tu noe he's with his ex.. Zin. nd it really make me feel so heartless. i feel lyk im dead where both guys really treated me as toys when ive opened up my heart tu them. i feel so useless nd hopeless y i cnt be lyk others. nd then on 17th May 2006 i was attached with this guy named Syafiq. whum i dont even LYK him at all! but i tried coz i wanna forget both rudy nd annuur but den ternyata, i cnt. oh god. nd so now, im waiting for tht someone tu come back. onli whu noes, will noe. hehe. nd so im now been single for almost 3 mths. which its the longest tym for me tu be single. nyahaha. bad2. nd now, my lyfe leads with my darlink girlfriends. nd waiting still for someone whu cn open my heart lyk Rudy nd An'nuur did. oh god haha. tt was so unbelievable. hees. somedae, u will never noe, yr heart wud change. as for now, im not really mad at them nimore lar. coz i noe i cnt force love. nd i noe wen it comes for me. im grateful tu have u guys for my two past yrs. i LOVE all my ex boyfriends. so much love from me tu u. hees. i dont regret having u guys. nd i hope u guys tuu. im ready tu face challenges as i was there for almost 3 yrs. nd anyone whu nid advices on love, do msg me. coz ive been thru thick nd thin, goods nd bads nd everything with a guy. okae?? remember girls, dont ever let yr guy take advantage of u okae?? do col me anyone. haha. so long entry for today. gosh! happy2 always for all ppl whus having relationship. all the best guys! muax! :))). with love, eqa... update more! gd luck!
loves yu!
actualli thers more story tu tell. but perhaps tmr?? yaya..
buhbye!
lurfes**
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ohh. am i bz this few daes?? ohh i think so. haha. ive been bz with syf trainings[still] nd dnt coursewerk[still]. urghh. so bored rite?? everydae the same thing i do. hmm. nd noe wat?? 2 more weeks to the karya. shish! im so damn scared sia. urghh! scared giler! wuui! nd tics for the karya ive onli sold ONE! u imagine la! ishk. damn2. nd now. woohoo. dnt?? im so doing it now. nd i dunno y ive started doing it with all my hearts tu it. woohoo! hehehhehehehe. c ya la . mls update byk2. c ya!
SYG, AKU PINTA SUPAYA KAU PULANG KEPANGKUANKU.
MAAFKANKU SEKIRANYA AKU YANG BERSALAH.
TAPI TLG LAH DAKU, DAN MAAFILAH DIRI INI.
KERNA KU TERLALU PERLU DAN CINTAKAN DIRIMU.
OH KEKASIHKU-
ANNUUR-160404-160406
ZULFAHMI-150404-???
ZAIRUL-261206-???
DANNI-160406-210406
RUDY-050506-100506
SYAFIQ-170506-280506
[THEY JUST THE ONE I LOVE THRU MY LIFE.ONLY TWO OF THEM not!]
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Monday, February 19, 2007
i was browsing thru my photos. but den i cudnt find my latest photo. i think i forgot to upload into my file from my cam. nd so. just wait lar for the photos aite. so sorry. todae cnt coz my sis brought the cam to sentosa with her frens. told her not to delete my pics. hope she doesnt. hehs. nd im so bored rite now. coz no one at home. mummy werking, daddy went macdonald with adeq. abg went to camp ready. kakak went out. nd im alone! gosh! im so bored! nd so. tmr having syf rehearsal at ucc at 10-12. nd after tt meeting kak ikin at her werkplace den apply for werk oso. den maeb watcing movie with kak ikin. den went home lor. i promise will upload my photos by tmr aite ppl. i lurfe u guys aite. sorie sweethearts hus been waiting for photos. lyk two or three outings photos. sorie! hehe.i wana go out lar. okae tok bout yesterdae k. since i got nth more to sae. yesterdae woke up at 10 nd siap2 to go east coast. daddy went there earlier. den me nd mummy went there ard 12 nd reach there ard 2 plus. nd so as usual i didnt eat much. i dont usually eat this few daes. nd i dunno y. i feel so restless. think im missing someone. hehs. no lar. den after tt kak ikin arrive. ard 6 plus lar. den went riding with her to macdonalds. u imagine lar from carpark F2 we went to macdonalds all the way. thru nd fro its lyke one hr plus. shucks rite?? urghhhs! but den fun coz got song to hear. haha. nd its so fun. nd we went home at 11 plus. coz cnot tahan tired readi! nd yes! at last i got to take photo with the cute bubbly, handsome DANI AQIL! hehe..so cute lar dey. he so cute! urghhs! haha. nd todae lyk tis lor at home dunno do wat. hmpf! klar, will update more tmr okae. i lurfe u ppl! muax! takkaire babes! :))
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Saturday, February 17, 2007
wow. yesterdae was a tiring dae. but a great one. had gongxi raya concert yesterdae. nd we're finally off from practices. nd mostly im happy is tt i nid not stress on zapin nimore! wee! nd the dance was okae la. but ppls forgetting steps really was such a dissapointment. which relly includes myself. i really was scared nd did not noe wat to do. nd so we really mess with the zapin. nd second dance which was jambu merah, was kinda okae. but then i forget one of the steps nd really make me more yucks! u shd c nd comment. urghh! tt dancewas lyk decades ago. no la. two yrs ago dance nd which we had practice it for almost more then 10 tymes lor. but den i was too nervous tt i enjoyed it till i forget the steps. yucks i tell u. nd photos will be uploaded in frenster soon. so check it out ppl. nd yeah. todae, at 9 we went to NUS for majlis taklimat nd bengkel sajak for 7 april comp. nd it was kinda bored nd fun at the same tyme. nd yeah as usual supandi blanja us pizza hut. wooho! tnx lar cikgu! we appreciate it! :)). nd yeah we made frens with victorian ppls nd okaela for overall. its fun. tts all lar! takkaire! sorie if ive not been updating. nd yeah HAPPY GONXI FA CAI! :))
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007
tired
tts the best to describe me! haha. im damn tired lor this few daes. with trainings, rehearsals, peers nd extra class on sats. actt the extra classes on sats haven start yet. its on the process. im busy! tired. my 'n' levels lar. syf trainings lar. gongxi raya rehearsals lar, syf rehearsals lar, azpirasi training lar, peer tutoring lar. syf trainings is from 3-6 every mon nd tues. gongxi rehearsals from 4-6, syf rehearsals from 7-1230 on tuesdae, azpirasi training from 5-10 every tues,weds[sometimes],saturdaes, nd sundaes. c how packed i am?? oh ya. religious class on sundaes b4 azpirasi training too. urghhs! shit man! ive not yet finish my 'N' level coursewerk for dnt u noe?? which the deadline is actt this fridae nd im still at research.. nd u see how packed nd stress i am??!?!? urghhs! people c me as happy not stress, but if u were in my shoes u will definitely b tired as i am now. with tests nd studies. pls lar! cn i have a rest! damn it lar! nd now, im waiting for afiqs msg to go to azpirasi training. nd yah i cn wake up kinda late on sats. no wait! i cnt coz i got taklimat to go at 10! urghhs! im so damn tired lor! ishk! okae! i guess till here. gotta go. buhbye! update soon!
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Friday, February 09, 2007
im okae! wee! haha. yesterdae i came to sch. haha. but im still sick lor. im still with my bad headaches lyk hell nd my sorethroat tt irritates me. ishk! den after sch went for geog peer tutoring den went home. nd sleep. haha. coz my head is really making me sick! nd then woke up nd watch tv. haha. nd den as usual wt i did lar. den todae had dnt for five periods. four periods with designrete teachers den the other one period we didnt do aniting coz we finish our drawings. nyaha. den 4n2 had to come down for 2-4 extra lessons just now. nd yay to 4n3A nd B no nid to come! nyaha. den got rehearsal for gongxi raya. nd i saw someone! wee! so happy sia todae! den after rehearsal watch soccer match nd saw ain. den went for parents meeting. but my parents didnt turn up. we had to stay. so we were at sch from 0800 am to 0900 pm. lyk hell lor! fcuk sia! but den it ended actt at 8 pm den we go play playground at azri's block until 0900 den me,fareez nd azrin went home. but its ok lor. at ,least stay in sch long hours still got nice2 food. haha. really sia. the foods all very nice sia! gerek man! nd tmr theres SYF practice from 10-1 nd aft tt maeb going out with darlinkks! yay! i lurfe them cnn?? hehe! buhbye! update more! nyte!
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Wednesday, February 07, 2007
okae! im sick! i cnt get up this morning. damn rite! nd supposed, i have bio test todae! god i miss it! ishk! i got sore throat, bad headache nd legs cramp. shit man! i ate panadols which i hate it just now. nd im feeling better now, but my headaches r driving me crazy. but alhamdulillah im gonna be okae. ive just finish watching harry potter just now, coz im bored staying at home. nd in a little while more im gonna watch "gong". since morning i havent had my shower. due to coldness nd i cnt tahan wen i went into the bathroom. nd ive been napping,lazing,lying ard due to this headaches which made me do this. nd ltr in abt 5 mins time im gonna have my shower nd sleep again i think. coz its been berdenyut from just now. nd i hate it. mummy force me go doctor. but i dont want to. coz i hate medicine! for god sake. :)) sorie mummy. but i'll go if it get werse okae?? klar. im gettin tired. nd my eyes getting sleepy. sorie ppl. update more okae! buhbye! ♥
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Monday, February 05, 2007
oryte.. todae didnt have much fun. as usual, school starts late. nd first period was p.e.. nd den maths. nd as usual maths BORING! nd after tt english. cute, silly mdm Asrina. hehe. den chemistry! woohoo! the last period was damn fun lor! khekhe. i noe u noe ppl dunno uhhs. khekhe. den after school had english tutorial. which ended early at 3. nd den went to murni's class nd help murni decorate the class. den at 4 went for gongxi raya rehearsal. bored but ok lar. we had two dance. which is first, zapin. den suppose to be the tarian keris. but den we request to cikgu supandi to change it to joget jambu merah. nd yeah! he said yes! nd yeah we had to rush out changed on the actual dae.. haha.. a round of applause for us! haha. mepek sak! yucks i hate rushing! nd yeah todae i had put all my photos in the frendster.. nd ppl, wnyone ones, take it there k.. lurfe ya lar! haha. klar sleeping.. tmr schooling. urggh! got assembly somemore. BORING! bye! update more! muax!
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Sunday, February 04, 2007
yesterdae went vivo with my lurfed ones. so sweet of them lar! i lurfe them u noe?? we had so much fun! wee.. we took lotsa pics. nd everything in friendster. so whuever wans it take it from there aite. nd den till 0630, i went off den went for azpirasi training. ira nd suzy didnt go coz they had probs. with fams. den so me nd murni only over there.. hehe. end it up at 1000. as usual uhhs. nd todae woke up late nd had madrasah.. nd after madrasah straite away went for azpirasi training again! hmmm.. nd it ended at 1000 oso. no! it end earlier todae. nd our sxhedule was changed from wed to tues. nd as usual on sat nd sun. nd it will cont as per normal... till the show.. nd i'll update more tmr! buhbye!
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Friday, February 02, 2007
okae. this is so unusual me for this past few weeks for not going to sleep now.. haha.. usually i would oreadi be in bed hugging myself.. coz my bantal mummy go nd throw! hmpf! okae. im bored lar.. simple explaination. nyaha.
buhbye.. i actt tot of riting sumthing. but nvm.. tmr instead.. buhbye.. mummy been so noisy..
bye!
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we was once loved by each other. nd now, we cn see ure changing. ure definitely changed. we're werried bout u. bt wat happened?? u lied?? u told us u nid us. but where u r now, wen we nid u badly?? i hope its not gonna be another crisis after another. which is we gonna separate due to dis. i dun wan tt to happen. ure just someone whu really make us happy. but how do i noe if ur werds r true.. whu u r to us?? do u noe how much ure meant to us?? urghh. u think i shud trust ur werds animore?? & im just facing problems with someone. &here u r making me stress.. syg?? do u noe tt im having problem. nd here u giving me another one?? let me settle it first b4 i come back to u. dont be angry with me. coz i still lurfe u k. im just bored, stress, sleepy. everything lar.. bored seh! urghhs. tnk god theres someone to tok to me in the msn chat.. so sweet of u.. haha. ishk! sorie syg! khekhekhe.. urghhs! im sleepy lar.. tmr having tarian in sch. den going out with darlinks. den maeb meeting.............. khekhekhe... maeb lar.. klar.. sleepy! nites! update more tmr! muax!
&im so waiting for u to come back. cann??
EQA