hollla! as per normal. schs r the same for me. nth change. hah. bored! nd yesterdae got my fav lesson(chem) but...... i noe u noe ppl dunno. [for those whu noe] shhh! heheks. nd yesterdae went home late coz got tarian. then todae went home late coz got peer tutoring talk or wateva lar. boring lar. supandi somemore. hmpf! bored. den this mr ng mcm paham jer mara2 org. haha. stop toking bout ppl lar iqa! nd now here updating! nd yeszaa! at last after two weeks of going to training at uT cc from sch. tmr at last i get to go home nd have some rest first! yeszaa! at last iqa at last! nd im still waiting for chemistry lesson! weehee! i lurfe him lar[not abt chem ehk].
ive been having some lurfe twds u again. but it seems lyk u dont have a trust in me.ohh how i wish i cud have you back in me. im so careless nd ruthless to do sth lyk tt. im so in lurfe with u. muax! haha. ohhok. now i dont noe wat to do. im gonna be a group leader for geog. nd i dunno wat ive done to be a group leader. gosh! but im grateful lar. haha alhammdulillah. amin. heheks. im so happy to c u everywhere since lastweek. heeks! i lurfe it lar! hehe/ takkaire. i'll update mroe soon! buhbye! trainings tmr! lurfes* :))
i dont nid anything else in my lyf except for you. do you noe how u r impt in my lyf??
okae ppl. i ask a broke up from kakak nd adeq relationship with murni. i noe its a little shock for her. but.. its for her own good. coz i noe she doesnt nid me. i still remember. it was on wednesdae during azpirasi prac nd at 8 or 9 plus if im not rong. nd aft i told her. seriously i say, she doesnt react anything. nd she act as if theres nth happen. im so heartroken. i tot wen i did tt decision she will not accept it. lyk duh of coz she doesnt. nd i noe she doesnt show her feelings. but hey, i lurfe u do u noe tt?? tts y im hurt! i left it undone. nd the nxt dae i told her the truth wat really happen. she cried. i cried. nd we talk things out. but then it didnt seems to be okae yet. i told suzy nd i cried. suzy said i have to thing twice. nd yup i thot. nd i have the decision. aft sch i told suzy nd she said tt gd. wats my decision was not to take the decision coz i noe i cnt live w/o her. im so sorie murni. but then she didnt get the msg. nd yar on fridae, we had cross country. nd we went to turf city with the lurfed ones. skaki nd kesme. oh ya sory fogot to tell. esme had a new member! its khalisah. nd so, esme was changed to kesme. remeber it hor! so then everything happen the same. the same kecoh peeps. haha. me nd ati didnt run. we were officials. nd the rest run.nd so aft the cross country, suzy went home with fareez. nd everything happen after tt only suzy nd ira noes. nd khal, ure super duper nice nd caring. i lurfe u babe. now, this comes.
KESME, if ever i were to leave u guys, would u let me go??
i new it wouldnt happen coz i nid u guys. but if i lost tt trust nd love from u guys, im sorry i have to go. coz to me i cn see. kesme really doesnt nid me for now. nd b4 it happens, KESME, I LOVE YOU GUYS. im sorry but if it happens,im sorry.
TO:
KHAL: ure the most cheerful girl even though u just joined us. u cared for me. nd it seem u understand me more. i lurfe u sweetheart.
EFA: a girl whu willing to go on life. nd a girl whu leads me all the way even im sad. i lurfe u!
SUZY:ure the bestest fren i love nd had. u cared for me. we shared joy nd pain together for more then 3 yrs. ure the one whu gave me strentgh to go on. after so many things has happen. ure the best ever in my lyf. we trust each other nd so we end up here as the bestest fren. nd u new how i feel wen ure not there. as u noe wen im sad nd happy. u pull me thru with ur guidance. i lurfe u so much sweetheart! ure still the best suzy! we gonna share everything together no matter wat.
MURNI: ure the best adeq in my lyf. u shared pain nd joy with me too. wen suzy is not ard, u gave me strentgh nd so do wen im sad. u pull me thru. we had a great tyme together for the past 2 yrs. wen ure sad nd cried, i would cry with u. wen ure happy, i would smile with u. but now, everything gone from u. just remember, watever happen to us tt tyme, is really un expected. nd now, i do really nid u. i lurfe u!
nd to all KESME, a big thnk u from me to u for giving me the love. i noe, we gonna be together for th rest of my life. i lurfe u guys! tnx so much for the care nd concern! I LURFE YOU! :))
& till here, im so happy to have a fren lyk u guys. nd to SKAKI, i lurfe ou guys too! tnx for helping me wen im in need. thank u so much!
till den, i lurfe u guys! muax!:))
okae! here it goes. im happy with dance lar! hehe. nice2 one lar! i miss dance even its been only one dae. haha. buhbye la! c ya soon! maeb tmr. maeb not. hehe. buhbye!
& yeah, ive lost a great2 bro in my lyf.
& yeah hes the greatest bro ive ever new.
& yeah hes been the nicest bro in the werld!
hello.
orytex. share a story with you guys. oh ya! sorry for not updating. been so busy! really. with so much stuffs. so. wed we went for the handicap tour. at whompoa. nd i thot its really gonna be very bored lor. but nope. itx fun. even though theres a part of this guy toking which make me really bored. haha. den we perform some sort of dikir barat remix with mr mani.haha. fun lar. the ppl they lyk it sia, nd wen mr mani giving out foods nd goodies from us, theres this uncle cried very loud sia. i mean mr mani lyk giving them sumthing to show tt we care alot. nd tt uncle cried u noe. nd wen i saw him cried. my teras all come out sia. very damn sad lor. ishk! den went home at 4 plus. nd then go straight to azpirasi for training. nd ended training at 10. nd my place has been taken! hmpf! so sad. hehe. nvm lar. hehe. so then went home sleep. nd on thurs, went for nanyang poly lak. haha. fun oso lar. but boring coz finish early. boring! so went home. nd today had cross country but me nd ati nvr run coz we're official.nd we're sick lar! nd so all goes on. with me crying so much. i'll tell ya tmr! nyte! buhbye!update more!
& i really nid ya now
holla!
&yup. i did not go for azpirasi training yesterdae. coz i reach airport ard 5 plus nd abg went in at 7 plus. nd i so miss him now. i cried yesterdae! gawd he's gone! he arrived safely at new zealand! alhamdulillah. amin. abang! bring me some chocolate home! haha. abang. you're missed! hehe.. &bck to yesterdae. i brought my baju along for practices. but i ended up not going coz theres no time. & mummy said tt if i were to go myself, wen will i arrive yew tee?? nd so i ended up following my family went for a walk at clarke quay. haha. & i so miss tarian sak! damn uhhs. didnt get to go yesterdae. den after going ard clarke quay with family &aunts fams, we went bck to airport to send the other nenek to go dubai. so off we go there. nd we went home at 0230 am. nd reach home nd went to slip. nd now woke up late nd here i am! hehe. nd so now, im rushing to siap to go madrasah. shit man. urghhs! uhmm. so buhbye! i'll update more. marb after madrasah. buhbye!
&here iam missing u badly.
holla.
second post for todae. okae. todae supposed to have azpirasi training. but im not going. coz my bro going to new zealand nd mummy ask follow send him. i actualli dun wanna go. but mummy said tt nowadaes ive been bz with schs nd tarians nd i kept ignoring about families but been going for tarian everydae. but im into it mummy! im so fed up siak. nd now, im rushing thru this to siap nd go send my bro to airport. my mummy said if im not following them nd gonna go azpirasi den im gonna mis my bro badly lor. nd yes i do think so. nd i too cn see ive been for tarian. but i nid it okae! i cnt be left out. i dun want to! urghhs! y is my dae lyk this todae?? nd murni oso cnt come coz of her mum bring the keys nd she cnt go out. nd i dunno how lar noe. i so miss azpirasi! pls! mummy let me go can??! urghh.. mummy! i wanna go! uhmm. pls! uhmm. i hope i can. i tell u if niting k ira. lurfe u sweetheart! muax! :))))
&im so fucked up sae! ishk!
holla.
yesterdae had tarian from 3-6. suppose to finish at 5. but everyone is lyk late nd no one remembers the steps. nd so cikgu was bingit. damn. i feel lyk crying sak yesterdae. ppl being late, ppl not remembering steps nd we cant find the kompang which cikgu always nid. nd im so dunno wat to do wen cikgu was really fed up. as me nd ira cn see from his own face lor. haha. den we started it all up at 0330. nd new comers were there too. so wen cikgu was teaching the ferst group, i went to the new comers nd teach them abit of wat we used to dance for sch's.l as cikgu hanani asked me too. haha. okae. den they were lyk damn diff to teach dem. but i kept teaching them the same thing. even lenggang they cnt do it. so i dunno lar. den the 2nd group had to prac. so i went to cikgu. nd the new comers rest. im damn fed up with someone lar. no nid to noe la okae. den the 2nd group one is okae though. den so we kept practising nd wen its the tyme cikgu wanna record the dance to make a song, the vid cam make a prob. so cikgu was more bingit. nd we lyk have to record it ourself during our own prac nd hand it to cikgu by tues. nd on mon theres many ppl cnt turn up. nd its lyk. urggh. one more thing. nut i dont salah kn drg. coz its sch daes mah. haha. okae. so... dancers, pls dont make any mistakes. okae., on fri thers no prac coz of cross country so i dont wan any of u to forget the steps wen it comes to practice the nxt fridae. pls! i hope u cud understand this situation. i dont wan cikgu to b angry animore. okae?? takkaire ppl. i lurfe u! buhbye! update more.
been going home late this week. haha. busy with cca's, outside training, tutorials, projects and courseworks. nd many more lar. ive been very very buys u noe. till ive got not enuf rest. not only me. oso to suzy,ira nd all the member's lar. its lyk wtf siak. everydae go home late. haiz. nd now, busy doing my 'N' level dnt coursework. tt have to hand in the definition nd research by tmr. nd im still doing it. nd have no idea on it. nd im not readi for my coursewerks lor. nd everything to be done by 20th july. oh shit! im so damn tired sak. nd todae the chan teacher go give us maths hmwk tt to be done by tmr oso. nd its lyk wth! how am i to finish the dnt coursewerks nd maths hmwks!??! the dnt now im only at pasting the research pics. nd im stressed up u noe! tmr's gonna have 5 periods dnt. nd how!!!! im damn tired sak! urrghhs! i think im gonna stop here in abt 5 mins tyme. okae. abt other things. malay dances nd tutorials. urghhs! azpirasi nd sch's cca. damn. but of coz i lurfe lar. but i feel so stress siak. but w/o malay dance, i will be more stress up bcoz with one whole week with sch's nd stuffs nd theres no where i cud go to for letting go my stress. nd now, the only place is of coz my malay dance daes lor. uhmm. wat cn i do?? nd nxt week's starts cip's, cross country, nd peer tutoring. gosh. the peer tutoring only finish at 5.15 shit man! urghhs! damn sak. uhmm. tarian's getting better lar ! i lurfe it so much! hehe. nice one lar seniors! nd juniors for sch's cca. nice one for seniors in azpirasi. hehe. i lurfe u ppl lar! u ppl made my dae so lovely. wee! c all the puspasari dancers tmr okae! dun be late. be at hall by either 0230 or 0300 okae. dont be late ppl. or cikgu gonna be mad. hehe. okae lar. have to concentrate on dnt nd maths for now. buhbye! update more lar! muax!
*lurfes*
holla!
haha. yesterdae went for azpirasi training from 5-10. b4 tt was at uT cc at 3 plus. nd everyone was late. including afiq nd efa. nd so, me, suzy nd sirin waited for them at outside 711 until 4. then we started wen they arrived. nd after tt supandi came nd watch our zapin. haha. den after tt all dunearnites went home. left me murni, suzy, nd ira. den talked to the beloved. haha. tell them wat im facing. nd everything lar. nd so, we cried. i cried badly. coz im the one having problem! nyahaha. but i love them. nd tts y i told them. hmpf! ati nd ira oso cried as they r there went the e.s.m.e cried. hehe. sweet lar them. then after tt went for azpirasi. nd makin panjang makin lawa sak the dance. i so lurfe it lar. takkaire lar k. i wanna sleep. tmr got madrasah seh. hmpf! buhbye! update more!
nothing in my lyf lurfes or nids u animore. we r thru.
&&i dont lurfe u!
holla!
okae. here i go. c. lyk i said. i just cn update after fridae. nd here i am. haha. okae these few are arite. nth much happens. yesterdae had tarian from 3-6 plus. we finished class at 1230 so me nd suzy went for lunch and then me, efa, lysa nd suzy went to malay dance store. we actually wanted to clean the store coz its damn2 messy. nd so we did it. we clean it up for about one hr nd ira they all came. b4 they came, lots nd lots of prob the four of us overcome. haha. lyk. cockroaches, nd all the silly things. nd olso smelly malay dance costumes, smelly evrything! nd the werse, the fans, for dance is so dirty nd smells so eww! i almost puke sia. nd we just cant stand everything. the indra nd the other guys came nd help. our store is lyk urghh! told cikgu hanani to renovate it coz till wen our things gonna be wet nd our shirts gonna be smelly w/o washing. nd its all bcoz the store bocor[ok. actt i dunno wats in eng. haha]. then we moped it all away nd everything lar. den after tt went for exam for a while nd then we clear the store again. we almost forgot to clear up. haha. den after clearing up, we did it! the store is cleaned! yay! but the bocor still havent fixed lar. haha. then we had tarian. ferst we had syf training den we had zapin. nd so todae gonna have zapin prac from 3-5 nd azpirasi training from 5-10. nd it all gonna start again todae for tiredness. hahaha. okae stop it! meeting suzy at my hse at 1 plus nd we gonna go uT cc at 3. so oklaer tired uhhs. buhbye! c ya again! update more! buhbye
tell ya wat ! i dont nid you in my lyf animore.
& its over between us.
no more you nd me !
fcuk off!
& i hate you so much !
& if you dont understand y..
i tell ya now.
U WONT NID ME !
damn ass!
holla.
first thing first. im sorry for not updating everydae now. coz ive been bz for schs nd tarians nd suchs. oh ya.. nd exams. kk. im so damn tired these few daes. as u noe ive been going home late due to exams in the afternoon nd the latest i went home is at 6. nd its todae. nd im sure tmr gonna go home late again. as usual routine. tarians nd study's coz im taking my n's this yr. nd mummy sae i cant play2 nimore. or else. shit man shit! urghhs! okae. stop! i want to tok bout my do's for this week k. yesterdae, went to sch as usual. nd as usual took the 7 o'clock 985. nd janji with ira. coz they wanna go breakfast b4 go sch. coz every mon now, we report to sch by 0820. nd tts gd! wee. hhehe. nd as usual 985 is always packed! hmpfh. but nvm. i still cn naek. janji ira at teck why sec bustop coz she staying near there. den went sch. nd limit2 sume lbt nd tk jadi gi mkn. woo! nd went to sch. so had mcm2 lar at sch. nd den, after sch went strait to canteen nd study maths. coz at 0230 had to go exam. nd i rush2 sak. nd doing the exam. siak! seriously, i dont even noe one thing. some lar. but the rest?? urghhs. shit man! i cant understand y cant i study lyk others?? hmpfh!den after tt went home. oh ya forgot. during exam i got stomach cramp tt really hurt me lyk hell. i mean its actt gastric lar. den frens care nd asked me batal my puase nd eat. but i dont want. but i cant tahan nd go buy some food. nd den eat. nd after eating then i really felt okae. siak ar.. wasted seh. hmpf! den went home. nd todae went sch as usual. todae not many ppl. coz i go out early. hehe. den went to sch. had assembly, eng nd many more lar. den after sch went to canteen again eat lunch den went for bio/chem exam todae. hmpf. nd todae last min this morning wen reach sch then gotta noe got tarian. nd its lyk supandi didnt tell us sak. nd everyone lyk never bring baju nd sluar for prac. nd its oso lyk me nd some of the dancers had to go for exam. nd so we went nd some only go for prac. chem paper i cudlnt do nd so bio. but i cn consider i fail both but im sure i did my very best for chem. heeh. i dont noe y. haha. then b4 bio paper got brek. so went to hall nd watch the dance prac. nd many things tt we left out. damn sak! urghhs! then bio paper ended at 0515. nd we went to hall nd cikgu da alek. nd its lyk. i wanna study the steps! nd ati told me our part got no changes! nd yay! nd so went home at 6 nd here blogging. im so tired u noe??!!! urgghs! den tmr gd got no exam. coz pass my eng. nd tmr's paper's eng. nd okae. no nid. nd den tmr after sch got zapin prac at ut cc strait away nd den at 6 got azpirasi training. nd u noe wat?? tmr, we're gonna be out from hse from 0600 a.m - 1000 pm u noe!!!! urghhh1 tired sak! ishk! den thurs got exam after sch. got comb humans. suzy no nid take so i go alone. hmpf! den fri got dnt paper. nd then got self training for SYF. urggh! cn i have lyk a rest this week! at least give me a one dae break! urgghs! im tired. i think im gonna online only after fridae. nd so sorie. do tag me up!
sorie i cant reply tags. dunno wat happen to my board. so here it goes
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fyqah:tnx for tagging! oh really?? ok. i wish tt tyme i tegor u. hehe. ure sweet lar babes! c ya anywhere! tnx niwae!
ajin:okae2. rock nd roll ehk.haha.
buhbye! update more!
hello
i noe. its been lyk decade since i updated my blog. chey iqa. mcm paham jek english. mepek. haha. okae. todae's fridae. nd its oreadi the third dae of skewl. gosh. ferst dae was okae. came to skool nd its the ferst dae tt im late. haha. this yr, ferst tym i go skool with public transport. NO MORE father sending to skool! hmpf. its all bcoz adeq skooling in the morn. nd its not fair. hmpf! went to skool, janji with ira. took 985. reach skool 7 plus. i mean reach at the bustop uhh. then waited for ati they all. then walking, lyk hell separuh jln sak. boh go close the gate. damn sak. so the akiese[ati,khalisah,ira,efa,suzy nd eqa(me)] were late. haha. so have to go to the front gate nd then boh ask we all sit at the carpark. as usual. nyaha. then saw shidah. haha. nd wen sitting down at the carpark nd singing the national anthem we r the only group whu is noisy & irritating. nyahah. den lyk normal. boh nag3. nd then got spot check. efa kene caught. me & khalisah, didnt kene. hehe. efa hair cn see colour. murni oso kene. coz saw her wen goin back to class. hehe. clever me put minyak. haha. gd lar. lazy lar colour my hair back. menyusahkn only. nd then ferst dae,ferst period had eng. but no one bring books. lyk normal. haha. den maths i think. & lyk hell ferst dae, she give hmwk. mepek siak! blueks! nd shes a new teacher. bluek ! eng teacher is mdm asrina. & the rest lyk the same uhhs. haha. den got p.e lar. got somemore lar. lazy write. haha. den went home 1.40 haha.. yay! now, every mon,tue nd wed go home 0140. wee ! nd on mon, we start skool at 0830. haha. shiok sia. wee! nxt week start the test readi. damn. boring. hmpf! yesterdae okae lar. quite sleepy but i force myself not to. haha.& atlast i did it! yay! & todae went skool lyk normal. den meet the rest. den went skool. had dnt for five periods. nd den recess. den ve nd eng. nd den went home. but we didnt go home. we went to hall nd do the booth. nd reach there got safura nd fazeera taking care. todae was supposed to have cca promotion for sec ones. but den the seniors nd syf dancers had to go to ut cc for practice. coz no place in skewl! & we wanna c the sec ones! nd dun have th echance to. & im still wondering now, will anyone sign up for tarians?? shit man! oh god! i dun wan our mcs club will be close. oh shit2! & im so tired aft a dae out for skewls. hmpf. tmr gonna go out with suzy to blajar maths & dnt b4 going for azpirasi training. & i hope tmr's azpirasi training will be continuing the dance. yay! i lurfe syf & azpirasi's dance! wee! i lurfe it! i wanna study! & all the best to me!
pray for me?? c ya! update more.. buhbye!
hey.
been so long ive not update. so sorie. been kinda busy nd been going out lately. damn. nd till now, ive got no time to study for my upcoming test. damn god! oh Allah. help me. im not ready for sch. nd many more. im just not ready fr sch. its bcoz, we have to go back to nd fro to sch this holidaes. how to have a pleasant holidaes u tell me. but im just grateful tt i have to go bck to sch. just bcoz i love tarians. hahah. but im not sure whether im readi for the exams. oh shit. Ya Allah. tolong lah daku. make this new yr a brighter yr for me nd family nd frens too. i lurfe u guys. oh Allah. tnx for making my 2006 a fun nd exciting yr with my lurfely frens, cuzzins, nd family nd my lurfe one. okae. i hope so much i cn do it. okae. fridae, didnt go anwhere. last min cancelled. haha. saturdae went out with mummy to geylang. then went to vivo. bought new jeans nd new shirt from topshop. ohh yeah! i got 2 new shirts. one purple nd the other one white. wee! im so happy. went out from hse at 11 nd went home at 12 plus. woah! one dae been outside with mummy. im in lurfe with shoppings. wee. oh ya. after bought the shirts nd jeans went to the playground coz my adeq wanna go so go there. then while sitting nd waiting for daddy, saw many kinds off ppl. haha. den daddy came, me nd mummy went to the toilet. nd then go to diva shop coz wanna look for clips. coz my hair is damn2 messy. den after tt walk2, my mum go inside nike shop nd she bought me a new nike bag for school! wee! i got a new bag. actually she wanna buy pink but i told her not to just buy the black one coz i wanna bring it for school not for showoffs rite so just buy the black lor. nicenice. weee! then after tt went home. wee! hehethen the next dae is hari raye haji. nd ya. SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI! hehe nd i got nth to sae. just tt went to neneks hse. tts all. haha. den went home. nd HAPPY NEW YEAR ppl! wee! im not happy on this new yr! god! oh Allah selamatkn diriku ini. Amin. 1st jan didnt go anywhere, just went out to west coast with family nd wak arats children. den after tt went eat at west coast. nd i tot i saw syafiqah. rudy's ex. i think so lar. coz she look familiar. nd her mum,my mums fren. nd i dunno lar. coz she look kinda diff too. dunno lar. wanna tegur but scared rong person. haha. so then went home. nd went to wak arats hse nd karaoke. haha. den went home. nd watch tv nd den went to sleep. haha. nd now, at home didnt do aniting. so boring. mummy nd daddy went out. hmpf! boring! im de one doing hte washing at home. ishk! buhbye lar. update more
&IM NOT READY FOR SCHOOL ! ! !
EQA