my life can never be better without YOU ★

im bored n i cnt sleep..just after seeing this persons profile which was my ex..i cnt believe this.. i told everyone even to myself we r thru.. n i cnt have him even if i were to jump down of the building just to get him into my arms..im just stupid..lyk ira n suzy said he is nth! he played me! he doesnt love me..yes! i do understand.. i realise tts its been over 4 mths ago..nd i cnt accept the fact tt he loves her.. which means im nth to hym..yes me nd hym is now lyk a fren..i love being frens with hym..lyk we use to b4 we met..i love being lyk tt..i dun even hold grudges..i even dun mynd being their fren..but it seems lyk she doesnt approve of being my fren..im sorie if i did rong..im truly sorie..i truthfully say,i do hate her..but tt was last tym..went he left me..but now.. no..its just tt i dun wan ppl to bear grudges n hate me..now..abt hym..i dont feel aniting for hym accept as a fren..coz we r thru..he have to his own way..me too..but wat matters nw..y do i feel different when i look at his picture wen he was with her??i feel lyk i still love hym..but i tell myself we're over..wat happen to me?? afiqah! afiqah! face the fact! wake up eqa! ure not hys..n please stop daedreaming eqa! stop it! i just cnt help it wen i look at tt pic..but i just love to be-friend hym..n her..we're not enemys..i noe we had love n shared love only for a while.. but eqa! eqa! eqa! love cnt be forced..you cnt even force hym to b yrs again! face the fact eqa! ure just hys ex n fren nw.. u dun wann hym to hate u n bear grudges,pls stop this eqa! u have to love hym only as an ex n fren..coz his hers..n u have to change yrself..be-friend hym,be-friend her..coz u cnt hate ppl forever..just forgive nd forget...nd remember eqa.. yr fren cares bout u! dun dissapoint them in relationships..

nw ppl..i really nid some advices.. hw do i actualli face the fact?? wen i even keeping n having feelings for hym still??even its been 4 mths??ppl2..help me..i wanna be his fren..i dun wan hym to hate me..pls!

hey baby,im sory for wat ive done.forgive me my dear.its been so long when i heard yr saying "i forgive u." i noe ive hurt u n her with my werds but im sorie frm the bottom of my heart to the bth of u.no one hears im crying rite now.coz my feelings for u have not yet fade.im sorie for the harsh werds i use to u. im sorie for not letting u go frm my heart. coz ure the greatest person in my hole lyf. im sorie for keeping the truth tt i still lurfes u. i wont want having u back. not bcoz of hate. just bcoz i noe u dont lurfe me n u lurfe her. n not wanting to let her go. im sorie i cnt be the perfect one for u wen we r together. im sorie i cnt give the lurfe u wanted. but im sure after 4 mths of letting me go,uve forgive me n not hating me. im sure u had wat u wanted. im riting this nw coz i still dont understand y i cnt let u go. n y i cnt face the fact. i noe ive done u wrong. i noe ive hurt u so. but this is the tym where i stands a chance to sae im sorie nd forgive me. nd pls sae yes u do forgive me. n yes u will be my fren. i promise i will not lurfe u more then a fren coz i noe u wont wan u girl lyk me. im just a simple girl. im sorie once again. n pls forgive me will u??

if ure reading this, i hope u noe whu u r..but remember i rote this not bcoz of hate but bcoz of the lurfe tt hasnt fade away. n bcoz i want so much yr forgiveness since the dae we broke up. im sorie if i didnt or cnt gave u much lurfe as wat u wanted..i felt so hurt in doing this to u.. im sorie.i hope so much aft u sae u'd forgive me,then i will let the lurfe tt i kept go n oll cryings go too..i promise.. coz i still feel tt u hates me.. n u dun wana be-friend me. im sorie. n pls.. i hope so much u cud forgive me.. much lurfe frm me to u..u'll not be forgotten even a sec. ure olways on my mynd. im sorie if i kept this. gd nyte. n i lurfe u.

okae2! case closed! yesterdae went to vivo city..yesterdae rite?? nw is 12 plus..so yup.. went to vivo city with efa..it was supposed to be the E.S.M.E outing to watch movie.. but suzy nd murni cnt go the last min. so only went with efa.. so only the E.E lorr go..haha..went there take 188..alermak the journey was lyk 1 hr plus.. damn sak! tau naek mrt eh efa?? tapi leceh uhh..tukar2 mrt.. haha..so fun lar take bus but the thing is tt i keep yawning.. hehe..reach there abt 1 plus uhh..coz frm cck at 12 plus.. so alerr.. leceh lerr kire2.. then went ther.. fulermak..the place was so damn big sia..first tym go rite..haiya mak.. then go search the cineplex..haiya..peh ssh... then walk so long then we find..then bought the tickets.. watch "SINKING OF JAPAN" then paid.. n went to look for place to eat..so another tym go walk all ard to find the food place..then saw LJS..went in n bought food.. ate nd ate.. then it was 2.10..so walk to the cineplex n went in..coz it started at2.25..wait2! we went to buy popcorn n drinks first.den went in..so sat,ate nd drank.. n the show started.. fulamak! they hero was damn hensome sia! oh...TOSHIO ONADERO..if im not rong.. rite efa?? haha.. see la..my guy died just bcoz wanna save thousands of lives..hais...so sad..haha...lame la eqa..hehe... then finish went rush to the toilet..coz its damn cold in ther. ****..then went jln2...then 5 plus went to harbourfront point or watever.. go ther sit at starbucks..drink nd hmm//dunno./ la..forgot..we took lotsa pic.. but just c it in frenster aite..sorie...nitez! tired la..tmr got malay dance.. buhbye!

taqqar!
-eqa-